The smell of new paint in my house. Weee~ Repainting the house to welcome the new year~! Though only the living hall, my study room and another small living hall upstairs. Kinda like the new colour that I had chosen, thought it was supposed to be coastal beige as in those beach's sand colour but turn out to be a little purplish. Anyway, still special~ ^^
Exam is really stressing me out anyway... Study this lecture today, forget about it the next day. Had been repeating this cycle for many lectures and total input to my brain is only 50% of what I studied. Damn cool. Microbio and Spectroscopy is still waiting for me to touch them. Microbiology is a killer! If I suddenly die one day, Microbiology murders me. *touching the wood*
I am having this problem. I CANNOT FOCUS AT ALL! OMG, its like I finally can concentrate, then... Where am I again? FML. Anyway, hopefully I can make it through this exam, not stressing too much. Daddy says: I still want my daughter. *touched*
Oh well, another thing to stress before this. House in UK. Thanks to my baby, I finally asked someone to look for a house for me! And finally msged some1 to ask is they wanna share. =p I do not know why but I just do not have the courage to send out those messages and mails. Kay, I know why, but please don't ask me why because you all should know if you read my post last year. All those dramas and anti-social thingy. Oops.
Really, who and how will I be if I did not meet you 9 months ago? What if I did not attend the event and be a nerd at home? What if what if what if... Okay, no more what if! I met you and I found you. That is what I know. Not only that, I also know that I Love You. It may not be an anniversary, not a monthsary (whatever you guys like to call it), but its an important date since its a day you walk into my life and it had been 9 months. *phewww, time flies*
P/S: I miss 89 housemates, college friends and CHS friends. Esp after meeting up with Shien, talking to Khee, FB with Joyce, planning gathering with Jye, talking about old days with Peng n Vern, sharing links on FB with housemates. OMG. I miss them! Exam please over soon, I want G.A.T.H.E.R.I.N.G
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Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Goodbye 2010!
First post of 2011... Review of 2010.
A lot of things actually happened in 2010, its not a year with no downfalls and no peaks.
I had been through a lot of struggling in January and February. Mentally breakdown in March when I thought its the end of the world. Crying through the night, telling myself not to get involved in relationship anymore. Misunderstandings break me down once again, running away to bff's house, knowing I have a bunch of friends supporting me behind me make me stronger.
Getting over it, knowing someone whom I once thought might melt the ice-cold heart again. Perhaps, a good friend and a good bf is different. Things gone cold and there is another intruder to my life. The owl flying into my life walks me through all these; Mr. Great promising me to put the smile on my face everyday. Taking up the VP pose of PharmNotts is another best choice I had made in 2010. Yea, tiring, pressured, stressful, but I enjoy it, seriously.
When someone important come into your life, maybe you need to sacrifice something, having a bunch of close friends leaving me, lost and not knowing who to get along with towards the end of semester. This hits me down once again but this made me realize how much I should cherish my friends who are always with me no matter what I have done, no matter how long I did not meet them.
Then, a hero officially come into my life, holding my hands to pull me up from the falls, healing my pain and giving me faith. It is hard to believe that all these happened in just 2 months, but yes, there is really something that will strike your heart and melt the ice covering your heart with just a touch. It might not be love at first sight but its a kind of fate that you cannot run away from.
June passes fast with a trip to Taiwan, outings with friends and dates with my love. July-- A memorable month of 2010. The first time celebrating birthday with bi, having him plan out everything, giving me Cupido and Cupipi, planning a surprise with my mum and sis and joining me to celebrate birthday with my whole family. Not much present received, but having everyone I love with me is the best present I ever received. Also, knew a lot of new friends through baby, learning the fact that there is really friends who are as close as brothers, sometimes closer. Maybe I will be jealous, but still, happy to see it.
August, spending the whole month working in Cerebos, dealing with microorganisms and coming back with chicken and chicken essence smell. Though boring and lifeless, still enjoyable when you get to do something you like. First time going on trip, even though its just a one day trip with friend, especially boyfriend to Malacca. One of the most memorable experience in the year.
Going on a vacation with my beloved darling Nichelle to Penang. Having her joining my family is the best damn thing in September. Eat, travel and camwhoring is best with her around. Start of a new semester, I am now officially year 2 student. Stressful life when you need to take care of studies, PharmNotts and love. Yea, there is a time when I really cannot get use to it, especially getting to see baby everyday and having less time to study. But really, thankfully, my baby is him, someone who is considerate and patient with all the unreasonable temper that I threw to him, all the tiny problems that I exaggerated and made them look so much worse than it should be.
There is one thing that I must not forget and leave out. My HOUSEMATES! I am totally in love with everyone in 89, TTS4. They are a bunch of awesome friends whom really brightened up my Y2S1 life. I never once wanted to stay back over the weekends because I really enjoy the life with them around, their laughter especially. I really cant stand to remember that I only have 3 more months to spend in the house with them. Gonna miss them so much.
I guess this year is the year that I cooked the most in my 19 years life because there is a pig who is willing to eat the food I cooked. I wonder if he ever knows that preparing any meal for him is a very blissful thing to do, no matter how stressed up I was with my studies. Also, no one appreciated it that much.
Really, I just realized, most of the memories that make my 2010 so happy involved him. Having him joining my relatives during mooncake fest is one of the best thing ever. Because this is the first time I introduce my boyfriend to my relatives, something that I never expect and never thought that my boy is willing and happy to do. Having my parents accepting my relationship, supporting it is also a blessing that I never expected.
Towards the end of the year, I received one of my best Christmas present and 2 unexpected presents which touched my heart. On the last day of 2010, I received 2 wonderful presents which put a beautiful full stop to this year.
Thank you everyone whom made my year a wonderful one. Though it started with sorrow, it ended perfectly. Thank you parents for everything that you have done. Thank you to my sis whom always listen to my complaints. Thank you baby Shaun Lim to walk into my life and make my 2010 a beautiful year, I might seems biased here, but without you, my 2010 ain't perfect and will not be this memorable. Thank you Shien for every piece of advice, without you, I will not be able to move forward. Thank you all my darlings and brothers esp Nich, Lynn, Jye, Jvn Yi, Louis, Chee Yuen for everything you have done. I cannot be naming everyone here since it will take me days to do so, SO THANK YOU! Thank you for being in my life and please continue to be in my life no matter what year it is, my life is great with your presence. It is not complete without you. *big hugz*
A lot of things actually happened in 2010, its not a year with no downfalls and no peaks.
I had been through a lot of struggling in January and February. Mentally breakdown in March when I thought its the end of the world. Crying through the night, telling myself not to get involved in relationship anymore. Misunderstandings break me down once again, running away to bff's house, knowing I have a bunch of friends supporting me behind me make me stronger.
Getting over it, knowing someone whom I once thought might melt the ice-cold heart again. Perhaps, a good friend and a good bf is different. Things gone cold and there is another intruder to my life. The owl flying into my life walks me through all these; Mr. Great promising me to put the smile on my face everyday. Taking up the VP pose of PharmNotts is another best choice I had made in 2010. Yea, tiring, pressured, stressful, but I enjoy it, seriously.
When someone important come into your life, maybe you need to sacrifice something, having a bunch of close friends leaving me, lost and not knowing who to get along with towards the end of semester. This hits me down once again but this made me realize how much I should cherish my friends who are always with me no matter what I have done, no matter how long I did not meet them.
Then, a hero officially come into my life, holding my hands to pull me up from the falls, healing my pain and giving me faith. It is hard to believe that all these happened in just 2 months, but yes, there is really something that will strike your heart and melt the ice covering your heart with just a touch. It might not be love at first sight but its a kind of fate that you cannot run away from.
June passes fast with a trip to Taiwan, outings with friends and dates with my love. July-- A memorable month of 2010. The first time celebrating birthday with bi, having him plan out everything, giving me Cupido and Cupipi, planning a surprise with my mum and sis and joining me to celebrate birthday with my whole family. Not much present received, but having everyone I love with me is the best present I ever received. Also, knew a lot of new friends through baby, learning the fact that there is really friends who are as close as brothers, sometimes closer. Maybe I will be jealous, but still, happy to see it.
August, spending the whole month working in Cerebos, dealing with microorganisms and coming back with chicken and chicken essence smell. Though boring and lifeless, still enjoyable when you get to do something you like. First time going on trip, even though its just a one day trip with friend, especially boyfriend to Malacca. One of the most memorable experience in the year.
Going on a vacation with my beloved darling Nichelle to Penang. Having her joining my family is the best damn thing in September. Eat, travel and camwhoring is best with her around. Start of a new semester, I am now officially year 2 student. Stressful life when you need to take care of studies, PharmNotts and love. Yea, there is a time when I really cannot get use to it, especially getting to see baby everyday and having less time to study. But really, thankfully, my baby is him, someone who is considerate and patient with all the unreasonable temper that I threw to him, all the tiny problems that I exaggerated and made them look so much worse than it should be.
There is one thing that I must not forget and leave out. My HOUSEMATES! I am totally in love with everyone in 89, TTS4. They are a bunch of awesome friends whom really brightened up my Y2S1 life. I never once wanted to stay back over the weekends because I really enjoy the life with them around, their laughter especially. I really cant stand to remember that I only have 3 more months to spend in the house with them. Gonna miss them so much.
I guess this year is the year that I cooked the most in my 19 years life because there is a pig who is willing to eat the food I cooked. I wonder if he ever knows that preparing any meal for him is a very blissful thing to do, no matter how stressed up I was with my studies. Also, no one appreciated it that much.
Really, I just realized, most of the memories that make my 2010 so happy involved him. Having him joining my relatives during mooncake fest is one of the best thing ever. Because this is the first time I introduce my boyfriend to my relatives, something that I never expect and never thought that my boy is willing and happy to do. Having my parents accepting my relationship, supporting it is also a blessing that I never expected.
Towards the end of the year, I received one of my best Christmas present and 2 unexpected presents which touched my heart. On the last day of 2010, I received 2 wonderful presents which put a beautiful full stop to this year.
Thank you everyone whom made my year a wonderful one. Though it started with sorrow, it ended perfectly. Thank you parents for everything that you have done. Thank you to my sis whom always listen to my complaints. Thank you baby Shaun Lim to walk into my life and make my 2010 a beautiful year, I might seems biased here, but without you, my 2010 ain't perfect and will not be this memorable. Thank you Shien for every piece of advice, without you, I will not be able to move forward. Thank you all my darlings and brothers esp Nich, Lynn, Jye, Jvn Yi, Louis, Chee Yuen for everything you have done. I cannot be naming everyone here since it will take me days to do so, SO THANK YOU! Thank you for being in my life and please continue to be in my life no matter what year it is, my life is great with your presence. It is not complete without you. *big hugz*
Friday, October 29, 2010
100th
100th post... Can I make 3 wishes?
Getting back my time management skills and can start studying asap~
VLVN and SSRH run well... Last week of stress next week! Please please attend VLVN and the talk~
Secret... Keeping it to myself. ^^
VLVN and SSRH run well... Last week of stress next week! Please please attend VLVN and the talk~
Secret... Keeping it to myself. ^^
Seriously, time passes really fast, 80% of my job as VP in PharmNotts had been completed. Both me and Dian Han were so relieved. It just felt like yesterday when we were first chosen, so many things happened, so many problems and stresses. And now... Its going to over. Suddenly feel so empty and lifeless again. LOL!
Anyway, more time to myself, S.T.U.D.Y!
Year 2 Gambate! ^^V
Anyway, more time to myself, S.T.U.D.Y!
Year 2 Gambate! ^^V
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Screwed
I have never been so screwed in my life before. All these effing stresses coming out of no where and suddenly appear in my totally screwed up life.
I never needed so much time before and now I am begging for 14 days in a week and the time please just stop for a moment. I need to finish my Endocrinology case study, make more promotion for the talks and vaccinations, arrange time with friends and private moments for myself!
Seriously going mad thinking about all these and going insane when people around you do not ever understand. Sabotaging my time for my studies for some seriously tiny matter which are so bloody not important should not be something people like them should do.
I am just begging for some space to breathe. Time, could you please just stop?
Seriously, why did I screw my life up so much this time?
If I need to sacrifice something to make things work, I would rather sacrifice myself.
Never ever ask me not to study or bloody hell study less. I am not going to do that.
Never ever in my whole life unless I know I can manage. Do not ask me to go out less with friends because I am going out very much lesser compare to others, going out less meaning NOT to go out at all, I am so not repeating that mistake.
Seriously, just a while for me to breathe in and out, to relax... Would you?
I never needed so much time before and now I am begging for 14 days in a week and the time please just stop for a moment. I need to finish my Endocrinology case study, make more promotion for the talks and vaccinations, arrange time with friends and private moments for myself!
Seriously going mad thinking about all these and going insane when people around you do not ever understand. Sabotaging my time for my studies for some seriously tiny matter which are so bloody not important should not be something people like them should do.
I am just begging for some space to breathe. Time, could you please just stop?
Seriously, why did I screw my life up so much this time?
If I need to sacrifice something to make things work, I would rather sacrifice myself.
Never ever ask me not to study or bloody hell study less. I am not going to do that.
Never ever in my whole life unless I know I can manage. Do not ask me to go out less with friends because I am going out very much lesser compare to others, going out less meaning NOT to go out at all, I am so not repeating that mistake.
Seriously, just a while for me to breathe in and out, to relax... Would you?
Friday, October 15, 2010
Acne, Jealousy, WHATEVER!
Sleeping less than 5 hours a day is seriously no joke. Pimple start crawling up my forehead, multiplying there and forming colonies there. They are so special that they can only survive in dessert where there is no water supply. The more my skin dehydrate due to staying in freezing cold AC room for long hours and yet not drinking enough of water, the more the grow. They had already attained resistance to my acne cream, cleanser and every single thing I apply on my face to eradicate all of them. OMG, I am seriously worry about my face! Pimple please please go away k? I know you guys wanna let me know I am stress and I need more sleep. I got the message now, just leave me alone k? I Don't Love You!
But seriously, my life had been turning upside down this semester, going all around and not sleeping until 3 am. Earliest time I slept since the Sem starts is 2 am, and that's when I am in m house in Subang. LMAO. The library used to be my second home but now, there is no more second home for me~ If I am forced to say 1, I would say SA - Mr. Gerard's office, counseling department... Anyway, need to experience some crazy uni life here. ^^
Had been getting lectures from parents which really made me stressed out. I just hope they could be a bit more supportive, not sarcastic. Well, hope I can prove to them that what they think about my lifestyle are so wrong. ^^
Realised something...
Jealousy rises when you can't achieve the exact same thing like what others did.
And yes, this is such a common sense. But who will actually admit that:
He/She can but I cannot. He/She is good.
And how many people know the answer to this question:
Does it help you to attain that something, by just jealousy?
There are many answers to this question though. 1 might say yes, other might say no. Actually its yes and no. =p
If it became a motivation for you to go from good to better, just like what others achieved, then its a healthy jealousy.
If it makes you think of how to make that someone fall without improving yourself, then... Fool, you are wasting your time!
Another thing is, sometimes, jealousy in a relationship does not mean you do not trust your another half, its just you do not trust yourself that you can actually be as good as the person you are jealous of. In other way, you actually admire your competitor.
But seriously, if the person really love you, he should love you for who you are. Why worry that the some1 he is close with will take him away? If that really happens, meaning, he is not worth your love and your competitor is not really that great for you to be jealous of her.
If it makes you think of how to make that someone fall without improving yourself, then... Fool, you are wasting your time!
Another thing is, sometimes, jealousy in a relationship does not mean you do not trust your another half, its just you do not trust yourself that you can actually be as good as the person you are jealous of. In other way, you actually admire your competitor.
But seriously, if the person really love you, he should love you for who you are. Why worry that the some1 he is close with will take him away? If that really happens, meaning, he is not worth your love and your competitor is not really that great for you to be jealous of her.
Last question:
Is it better to live an imperfect lifestyle than to imitate others' lifestyle perfectly?Friday, October 8, 2010
Perfection
Being a perfectionist just screw my life up.
Ya, maybe many things I have done came to a very nice end because of my pursue for perfection. I always do my very best to achieve the best outcome I can ever get. I can do anything just for it, deteriorating my health, sacrificing my outings or even going around begging for help. I never regret for being a perfectionist when it comes to things that involve me and only me. There are no worries that people might not be comfortable with my own principle, my own thoughts and my own way of dealing with things.
The perfectionism in me freaked me out when I am not the only one in the whole picture.
When people might only expect 70% from the project we are working on, I might be aiming for a 99%. There comes the great conflict. I will be working much more than the others, perhaps in the process let other thought that I am just trying to show off, and in the end stressing myself up, leaving myself thinking 'Why am I so worn out because of this which I do not gain any benefit or when others are doing much lesser?'. There is only one answer: Perfectionist. Sometimes, it really hurts a lot when others do not understand that you are just trying to get the best out of things we are doing, and thinks that its a way to humiliate them, telling them how good I am. But seriously, for those who have this thought in your mind, screw it please. I am just being a freak, hoping everything is done nicely, even if I am not gaining anything from it. I am just trying to carry out my responsibility in the best manner.
Intruding others' life, changing them from who they are to what I want them to be is such a normal thing for me to do. I mean normal, not easy. Seeing cousins neglecting the studies for games, dramas, or whatsoever make me scold them, make me trying to control their time management. This is really none of my business, not like their parents are not there to do that. Its just the thought that they must be like me, try my best to excel in studies, even if fail, at least try. I forgot that not everyone can be as perfectionist as me.
I can't help but to nag when seeing friends risking their health with cigarettes, weeds, alcohol or any kind of drugs coming into their life. I know those people who got words from me might feel really annoyed, thinking: 'Why the hell are you giving me lectures? Who are you?'. I totally understand but sorry, a perfectionist is not only looking for perfection in her life, but also people who are close to her. I will not give a damn to your life if you are just some hi-bye friend in my life. If you mean nothing to me, then the way you ruin your life will not affect the perfectibility of my life. I sound selfish huh? But too bad, I am selfish. I want my life to be as perfect as possible and I do not want you to leave my life. So I chose to introduce some good changes in your life, hopefully in a manner that both feel comfortable. A perfectionist cannot risk losing a friend in her life, more importantly, cannot risk having a friend losing his life. So, I might hate myself for being a perfectionist, giving you and myself burden, screwing up my friendships with people but in other way, I am glad that I am a perfectionist.
It is just that,
Sometimes, you love someone too much that you cannot stand to see his or her life change too much, to the extent that they will lose themselves when you left their life.
Sometimes, you love someone too much that you want to respect his or her choice and rather choose to hurt yourself, sacrificing your perfectionism.
But hey, people cannot be perfect, weigh the flaws yourself.
爱你,离开你。。。 静静的聆听,你幸福的回音。 A sad but nice song. Recent new love =p
Ya, maybe many things I have done came to a very nice end because of my pursue for perfection. I always do my very best to achieve the best outcome I can ever get. I can do anything just for it, deteriorating my health, sacrificing my outings or even going around begging for help. I never regret for being a perfectionist when it comes to things that involve me and only me. There are no worries that people might not be comfortable with my own principle, my own thoughts and my own way of dealing with things.
The perfectionism in me freaked me out when I am not the only one in the whole picture.
When people might only expect 70% from the project we are working on, I might be aiming for a 99%. There comes the great conflict. I will be working much more than the others, perhaps in the process let other thought that I am just trying to show off, and in the end stressing myself up, leaving myself thinking 'Why am I so worn out because of this which I do not gain any benefit or when others are doing much lesser?'. There is only one answer: Perfectionist. Sometimes, it really hurts a lot when others do not understand that you are just trying to get the best out of things we are doing, and thinks that its a way to humiliate them, telling them how good I am. But seriously, for those who have this thought in your mind, screw it please. I am just being a freak, hoping everything is done nicely, even if I am not gaining anything from it. I am just trying to carry out my responsibility in the best manner.
Intruding others' life, changing them from who they are to what I want them to be is such a normal thing for me to do. I mean normal, not easy. Seeing cousins neglecting the studies for games, dramas, or whatsoever make me scold them, make me trying to control their time management. This is really none of my business, not like their parents are not there to do that. Its just the thought that they must be like me, try my best to excel in studies, even if fail, at least try. I forgot that not everyone can be as perfectionist as me.
I can't help but to nag when seeing friends risking their health with cigarettes, weeds, alcohol or any kind of drugs coming into their life. I know those people who got words from me might feel really annoyed, thinking: 'Why the hell are you giving me lectures? Who are you?'. I totally understand but sorry, a perfectionist is not only looking for perfection in her life, but also people who are close to her. I will not give a damn to your life if you are just some hi-bye friend in my life. If you mean nothing to me, then the way you ruin your life will not affect the perfectibility of my life. I sound selfish huh? But too bad, I am selfish. I want my life to be as perfect as possible and I do not want you to leave my life. So I chose to introduce some good changes in your life, hopefully in a manner that both feel comfortable. A perfectionist cannot risk losing a friend in her life, more importantly, cannot risk having a friend losing his life. So, I might hate myself for being a perfectionist, giving you and myself burden, screwing up my friendships with people but in other way, I am glad that I am a perfectionist.
It is just that,
Sometimes, you love someone too much that you cannot stand to see his or her life change too much, to the extent that they will lose themselves when you left their life.
Sometimes, you love someone too much that you want to respect his or her choice and rather choose to hurt yourself, sacrificing your perfectionism.
But hey, people cannot be perfect, weigh the flaws yourself.
爱你,离开你。。。 静静的聆听,你幸福的回音。 A sad but nice song. Recent new love =p
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Updates~
Its 2nd week of MPharm II and I am starting to get used to the many changes of Year 2 life.
Life is great with a car around, especially being trapped in such a jungle when you cant walk out and get a nice restaurant for a lunch or dinner~ Still waking up as early as usual... Why? Parking skills sux so need to get to the parking area in campus earlier since it will be sooooo empty that I can easily get my cute baby into the parking box. =p
Life in Uni with not only friend... I am really starting to get used to it. Had some serious conflict and a lot of questions for myself on the first few days of uni. Is it really a nice timing? Can I cope with my studies? Can I use my time fully, as in without affecting my study time, without ignoring my friends ans can still spend time with him? Took me sometime to get away from thinking only about me myself and start putting him into the time planning. Just... Thank you for understanding.
Its difficult to ignore the fact that Pharmacy is a stressful course... Esp when added with PharmNotts stuffs. Imagine class from 9-5 and meeting from 5 til maybe 6? It might be once a week, but still tiring. Also, everyone is really getting into study mood now. Its only the first week and the book I borrowed on the 3rd day of class was being recalled. All the books were fully booked. Its just so amazing thinking about that. Need to trigger my kiasu genes already. Lab starting soon, meaning~ Reports shall be piling up soon! And guess what, my laptop is going to hospital this week or maybe next week. Wish me luck in finishing my report on time!!!
And, I know, things change and feel different, I am being really emotional lately, great mood swings, paranoid, thinking way too much, throwing temper all around. Bla~ Anyway, time to get back to serious business~ Cannot fool around already! Smile girl~
Life is great with a car around, especially being trapped in such a jungle when you cant walk out and get a nice restaurant for a lunch or dinner~ Still waking up as early as usual... Why? Parking skills sux so need to get to the parking area in campus earlier since it will be sooooo empty that I can easily get my cute baby into the parking box. =p
Life in Uni with not only friend... I am really starting to get used to it. Had some serious conflict and a lot of questions for myself on the first few days of uni. Is it really a nice timing? Can I cope with my studies? Can I use my time fully, as in without affecting my study time, without ignoring my friends ans can still spend time with him? Took me sometime to get away from thinking only about me myself and start putting him into the time planning. Just... Thank you for understanding.
Its difficult to ignore the fact that Pharmacy is a stressful course... Esp when added with PharmNotts stuffs. Imagine class from 9-5 and meeting from 5 til maybe 6? It might be once a week, but still tiring. Also, everyone is really getting into study mood now. Its only the first week and the book I borrowed on the 3rd day of class was being recalled. All the books were fully booked. Its just so amazing thinking about that. Need to trigger my kiasu genes already. Lab starting soon, meaning~ Reports shall be piling up soon! And guess what, my laptop is going to hospital this week or maybe next week. Wish me luck in finishing my report on time!!!
Anyway, first 2 weeks were nice~ =p BBQ to celebrate moon cake fest with friends, BBQ in my new house and dinner with friends~ Life's good... When not thinking about studies. LOL! But I would rather have such packed timetable, at least you know, its time to study~ Not honeymoon year anymore...
MoonCake Fest!
And, I know, things change and feel different, I am being really emotional lately, great mood swings, paranoid, thinking way too much, throwing temper all around. Bla~ Anyway, time to get back to serious business~ Cannot fool around already! Smile girl~
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Hello Year 2!
Finally Year 2 is starting 2 weeks later.
4 months had passed just like that, without any useful things done at all, other than my Industrial Training in Cerebos during August. Summer holidays with no books, no lectures, no assignments and no experiments rox!
Seriously enjoyed my Summer holidays a lot, managed to catch up with a lot of friends who are always here or just came back from overseas, mainly UK, also traveling to Penang, Malacca, Genting and Taiwan. ^^
But... Time to wake up from my super sweet, relaxing and enjoyable Summer Dreamz~ Face the reality once again!
Just moved in my stuffs to my new room in TTS 4. Room mate? PEK PENG! Weee~! This room is seriously much better than the 1 I stayed in during my Year 1. ^^ Hope I will enjoy more! =p
There are seriously a lot of changes throughout this four months and my Uni life in Year 2 will definitely be different because:
1. More assignments, more reports and TOUGHER modules! (Duh...)
2. Becoming senior!!! And my seniors are now in the UK! Gonna miss them.
3. More workload! Why??? PharmNotts! =p Schedule is now quite full even before the new Sem starts. OWA is constantly reminding me that I had exceeded my mail storage size. LOL! Hope my juniors can be good enough to ease out our jobs~
4. Having baby in the same Uni with me and hence... Adding lotsa sweetness to my Uni life~ ^^
The only thing that will not change is:
p/s:Darling leaving tomorrow! Hope you have a safe flight o~ Shall meet you again next year in June! Muax! <3
4 months had passed just like that, without any useful things done at all, other than my Industrial Training in Cerebos during August. Summer holidays with no books, no lectures, no assignments and no experiments rox!
Seriously enjoyed my Summer holidays a lot, managed to catch up with a lot of friends who are always here or just came back from overseas, mainly UK, also traveling to Penang, Malacca, Genting and Taiwan. ^^
Family and Nich darl in Penang! (Batu Ferringhi)
But... Time to wake up from my super sweet, relaxing and enjoyable Summer Dreamz~ Face the reality once again!
Just moved in my stuffs to my new room in TTS 4. Room mate? PEK PENG! Weee~! This room is seriously much better than the 1 I stayed in during my Year 1. ^^ Hope I will enjoy more! =p
There are seriously a lot of changes throughout this four months and my Uni life in Year 2 will definitely be different because:
1. More assignments, more reports and TOUGHER modules! (Duh...)
2. Becoming senior!!! And my seniors are now in the UK! Gonna miss them.
3. More workload! Why??? PharmNotts! =p Schedule is now quite full even before the new Sem starts. OWA is constantly reminding me that I had exceeded my mail storage size. LOL! Hope my juniors can be good enough to ease out our jobs~
4. Having baby in the same Uni with me and hence... Adding lotsa sweetness to my Uni life~ ^^
The only thing that will not change is:
I love my Friends~
I Love my biscuits and my new lover-- Cornflakes~
I Love to Study~
Need to put in more effort this time to prove to my parents I can still study no matter what changes I had in my Uni life! UNMC Pharm Year 2, Here I come! See you officially on 27th Sept!
I Love my biscuits and my new lover-- Cornflakes~
I Love to Study~
p/s:Darling leaving tomorrow! Hope you have a safe flight o~ Shall meet you again next year in June! Muax! <3
OMG! I don't want Summer Hols to End! Stop the clock from Ticking PLEASE!
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Thank You
Even though I had been through times when I lost hope in some people, times of heart-break and felt like being left out, I really feel blissful to have a some friends who really loves me.
Even if we do not chat much, did not keep in contact for some time, I will still be remembered and things never feels awkward when we met. I will not forget how they lent me a helping hand when I was down, will not forget all the advice they gave me when I am being emotional, will not forget what we gossiped, will not forget all the moments we spent together.
Friends like you will be kept by my side forever. All the people I call dear, I call darling, I call sis, I call gor~ Really, thank you for being in my life.
Sometimes, I might feel lonely seeing people hanging out with a big bunch of friends, but seriously, among all those friends, how many can they share their secrets and problems with? Thinking of this, I really feel lucky to have all my dears and darlings to listen to my problems and secrets, all my gor and sis to understand my feelings. Thank You~
p/s: The source of this random post >>>
Chiam Shien Yin: You better go on9 everyday and tell me when you have any problems, I will be troubling you with my problems even if you are in UK!
Even if we do not chat much, did not keep in contact for some time, I will still be remembered and things never feels awkward when we met. I will not forget how they lent me a helping hand when I was down, will not forget all the advice they gave me when I am being emotional, will not forget what we gossiped, will not forget all the moments we spent together.
Friends like you will be kept by my side forever. All the people I call dear, I call darling, I call sis, I call gor~ Really, thank you for being in my life.
Sometimes, I might feel lonely seeing people hanging out with a big bunch of friends, but seriously, among all those friends, how many can they share their secrets and problems with? Thinking of this, I really feel lucky to have all my dears and darlings to listen to my problems and secrets, all my gor and sis to understand my feelings. Thank You~
p/s: The source of this random post >>>
Chiam Shien Yin: You better go on9 everyday and tell me when you have any problems, I will be troubling you with my problems even if you are in UK!
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Double
Sometimes, I really wonder... Is it worth it for you to do so much for something or someone? It is okay if they do not appreciate, but why must they take it for granted and even bite you back, hurting you as a payback.
Some people demand a lot from others while they cannot offer others anything. Sometimes things they do are just like a piece of worthless shyt and you will need to fix the situation for them. It hurts more when they look like the god from heaven and you look like the devil from hell in others eyes.
I hate such people.
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People always pursuit for something better in life and hence tends to change the things or people around you to meet the standard you set.
Actually, we do know that doing this make ourselves suffer, making our lives miserable but we just can't control. Things come so naturally that we seldom realize what we are doing until someone tell us.
But then, are we actually wrong? It may be suffering right now, but it will turn out great in the future. Just that people do not want to look at the future, for it is still a long way ahead. Some just cannot accept changes, because they are perfectly okay with their life now and they do not want to suffer.
Perhaps, living your own life, doing anything you like to your own life is enough. But... Caring for others, doing anything you can for others is something really happy, even if you suffer a lot in the process.
I feel contented in my own way knowing that I actually did something for someone, even if it does not turn out as what I expected. At least... I DID SOMETHING and I can answer to myself.
Some people demand a lot from others while they cannot offer others anything. Sometimes things they do are just like a piece of worthless shyt and you will need to fix the situation for them. It hurts more when they look like the god from heaven and you look like the devil from hell in others eyes.
I hate such people.
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People always pursuit for something better in life and hence tends to change the things or people around you to meet the standard you set.
Actually, we do know that doing this make ourselves suffer, making our lives miserable but we just can't control. Things come so naturally that we seldom realize what we are doing until someone tell us.
But then, are we actually wrong? It may be suffering right now, but it will turn out great in the future. Just that people do not want to look at the future, for it is still a long way ahead. Some just cannot accept changes, because they are perfectly okay with their life now and they do not want to suffer.
Perhaps, living your own life, doing anything you like to your own life is enough. But... Caring for others, doing anything you can for others is something really happy, even if you suffer a lot in the process.
I feel contented in my own way knowing that I actually did something for someone, even if it does not turn out as what I expected. At least... I DID SOMETHING and I can answer to myself.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Complicated
Things in this world is just complicated especially feelings. There are times when you do not know what feelings or emotions you should be having.
When you are feeling so overjoyed, you try to ignore the sadness, frustration, depression, insecurities and worries because they seems to be negligible, also because you tends to choose the positive thinking.
When problems strikes, no matter how minor it seems, it will bring out the negative feelings deeply buried inside you. All the negative thoughts, all those worst case scenario and ignored problems will just flood out before you realize. If at this moment, something happy happened, what should you feel?
Its like on a roller coaster when you went up so high, then suddenly rushing down the slope and go up again. There are many people in this world who cannot take this ride because their heart cannot stand it. And yes, many people cannot deal with sudden mood swing and all the mixed feelings.
There are also sometimes when you know you are feeling this way but you are forcing yourself not to because you are told that you should not. Sometimes also because your feelings are not only affecting yourself only, but also some other people or the relationship between each other. Its like, no matter being selfish or not, you will get yourself hurt in the end. So, what should we feel?
When you are feeling so overjoyed, you try to ignore the sadness, frustration, depression, insecurities and worries because they seems to be negligible, also because you tends to choose the positive thinking.
When problems strikes, no matter how minor it seems, it will bring out the negative feelings deeply buried inside you. All the negative thoughts, all those worst case scenario and ignored problems will just flood out before you realize. If at this moment, something happy happened, what should you feel?
Its like on a roller coaster when you went up so high, then suddenly rushing down the slope and go up again. There are many people in this world who cannot take this ride because their heart cannot stand it. And yes, many people cannot deal with sudden mood swing and all the mixed feelings.
There are also sometimes when you know you are feeling this way but you are forcing yourself not to because you are told that you should not. Sometimes also because your feelings are not only affecting yourself only, but also some other people or the relationship between each other. Its like, no matter being selfish or not, you will get yourself hurt in the end. So, what should we feel?
Monday, August 16, 2010
Congrats~ ^^
"Sophia, I THINK I AM PREGNANT!"
The words were like a cup of coffee or Livita or Red Bull... Instantly woke me up and turn off my sleepy mode.
That was the first thing she told me in that morning when she saw me.
My reaction: Stunned --> Blank --> OMG --> HAPPY!
'Cos I was like joking around with her last week saying that she might be pregnant since she kept on thinking about food, having a greater urge for food she loves. It was like OMG, what I said came true and most importantly... This is the 1st time some1 told me herself that she is pregnant~! It may sound real weird or I might be the only hyper 1, but seriously, none of my cousins are married, I mean not in Malaysia and I do not have siblings! Feels so excited though I am not really close with her. Still, congrats!!! =p Ohya, SHE is my colleague. ^^
Talking about babies, makes me think about marriage, and hence thought about Wedding! OMG, I am super crazy over wedding gowns! Don't you think that wedding gowns are super duper nice? It's like the nicest dress on the world. Really feel like wearing one and have a photo-shooting session. There is no rule stating that one must be getting married when she wears a wedding gown right? Perhaps, I should get my cousin or friend to go take photos with me. ^^
N, I just wanna wear a wedding gown, not want to get married. =p

You know wat, Vera Wang is simply AWESOME~!
Random Fact: There is a bridal shop in SS2 call SOPHIA.
K, drag too far~ Haha! =p
The words were like a cup of coffee or Livita or Red Bull... Instantly woke me up and turn off my sleepy mode.
That was the first thing she told me in that morning when she saw me.
My reaction: Stunned --> Blank --> OMG --> HAPPY!
'Cos I was like joking around with her last week saying that she might be pregnant since she kept on thinking about food, having a greater urge for food she loves. It was like OMG, what I said came true and most importantly... This is the 1st time some1 told me herself that she is pregnant~! It may sound real weird or I might be the only hyper 1, but seriously, none of my cousins are married, I mean not in Malaysia and I do not have siblings! Feels so excited though I am not really close with her. Still, congrats!!! =p Ohya, SHE is my colleague. ^^
Talking about babies, makes me think about marriage, and hence thought about Wedding! OMG, I am super crazy over wedding gowns! Don't you think that wedding gowns are super duper nice? It's like the nicest dress on the world. Really feel like wearing one and have a photo-shooting session. There is no rule stating that one must be getting married when she wears a wedding gown right? Perhaps, I should get my cousin or friend to go take photos with me. ^^
N, I just wanna wear a wedding gown, not want to get married. =p

You know wat, Vera Wang is simply AWESOME~!Random Fact: There is a bridal shop in SS2 call SOPHIA.
K, drag too far~ Haha! =p
Saturday, August 7, 2010
They come and go... And sometimes, they stay permanently...
Do you ever wonder why some people just stop talking to you or even ignore your existence? Sometimes, they feel that you are just talking to the air around them, that's why it "look" like you are facing them.
I dare say, I am lucky enough to have all these happening on me more this year. Isn't it interesting? Being able to have all these experiences, going through all those sad and disappointing moments in life.
It especially hurt most when others asked you about it. No no, that's not the worst part. The worst part is: YOU DO NOT KNOW THE REASON YOU ARE BEING IGNORED.
Only at this moment, you will know that you do not understand them at all. You will even start doubting yourself, IS IT A CRIME TO BE NICE TO PEOPLE? or IS IT A CRIME TO HELP AND CARE FOR THEM? IS IT A CRIME TO DO MY BEST IN MY JOB? I guess it really is.
Luckily at this moment, I remember some one telling me: " As long as you know that you did the right thing, as long as you can answer yourself, you are not wrong." Yes... I am not wrong, I just, do not have the luck. Let's blame it to my destiny and the only thing I can do is, SMILE AND CONTINUE MY LIFE, not letting anyone interrupt it. Accept the fact that people come and go in your life, those who meant to and destined to stay, will be with you forever, no matter how far you are apart, they will still be in your life. Some people who are close to you or around you for a very long time might not even be those that will be in your life forever.
I dare say, I am lucky enough to have all these happening on me more this year. Isn't it interesting? Being able to have all these experiences, going through all those sad and disappointing moments in life.
It especially hurt most when others asked you about it. No no, that's not the worst part. The worst part is: YOU DO NOT KNOW THE REASON YOU ARE BEING IGNORED.
Only at this moment, you will know that you do not understand them at all. You will even start doubting yourself, IS IT A CRIME TO BE NICE TO PEOPLE? or IS IT A CRIME TO HELP AND CARE FOR THEM? IS IT A CRIME TO DO MY BEST IN MY JOB? I guess it really is.
Luckily at this moment, I remember some one telling me: " As long as you know that you did the right thing, as long as you can answer yourself, you are not wrong." Yes... I am not wrong, I just, do not have the luck. Let's blame it to my destiny and the only thing I can do is, SMILE AND CONTINUE MY LIFE, not letting anyone interrupt it. Accept the fact that people come and go in your life, those who meant to and destined to stay, will be with you forever, no matter how far you are apart, they will still be in your life. Some people who are close to you or around you for a very long time might not even be those that will be in your life forever.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
A Memorable Birthday~!
Tadaa~ I am finally 19-year-old, cannot laugh at people saying I am still 18. 1 more year before I turn 20. >< Well, this year, my birthday is really a happy one. I had not been having such happy birthday since the last birthday four years back then when I threw a birthday party at my house.
Perhaps, birthday is not really that important but it is still special, a day when you are born to this world, a day when you start your journey of life. No matter how you live your life, you will not have a chance to if there is no such a day known as YOUR BIRTHDAY. Hmmm, why making it sounds so serious and complicated... >< Anyway, for me, I just have a little wish which is to spend this day with my love ones, and this year, I did it. ^^ My parents, my sisters and my boyfriend.
9th of July:
Had been looking forward to this day and I was not disappointed by even a tiny bit. Baby had planned it well and there is just 3 words to describe it -- SWEET LIKE MAD
Baby and I chosen karaoke to spend our time before dinner. We went to Redbox Gardens for the buffet lunch and seriously had a great time there. Its like almost a month since I went to sing k so yea, we enjoyed ourselves~ ^^ Singing all the songs with baby was just sweet~ =D
Us at Redbox~

Then, we were supposed to go Ampang Look-Out-Point. But, my parents were nagging for going out til very late (it was only 9 plus...) and the traffic was jam like mad. Seriously, stuck in a dunno-what-is-going-on jam for like 15 mins, basically, there were jam in any road we used. So... Gave up since I promised mum to be back by 11. >< Not disappointed though because that was just an extra bonus of the night and I had already seen the night view of KL in the restaurant. ^^
Then, my baby was so busy with messages when he was driving me home. Luckily his driving skills is good enough... LOL! That pig dunno why suddenly looks so emo, so I thought he was just too tired. 4 hours of karaoke session by 2 person only was not easy le. Haha.
Anyway, reached home and had baby to stay at my house til at least 12 am to countdown my birthday. ^^ Audrey was there too cos since last year she will be staying over at my place to countdown with me too. =p When I went upstairs to find my mum, she passed me a present from my aunt. Its a romper~ (I always thought I can never fit into one because of my super weird proportion, like what baby said: 30:70... >< But this 1 was just nice le~ Really thank you! Haha.)
Audrey made me try that romper and that 2 devil (audrey and baby) were busy chatting. I thought they were insulting each other again. LOL! But, after I am done fitting into that romper and wanted to show them, I WAS SHOCKED~ Guess what, they are carrying a cake outside my room and singing Birthday song! Even my mum was part of it. ><"
Seriously, it was really very sweet! To have you love ones planning a surprise for you and feel more sweet after knowing the process of planning. I Love You Mummy, Audrey and Shaun! And baby, you are really crazeeeee in a super good and sweet way!!!!!!! I am really happy to be blur~! It really works because I seriously did not suspect a single thing. ><
Me and Audrey!!!!!! Love you my Sis~! Really do not know how u can keep this from me for like a week~!
Ohya, And when I took out my Cupido and Cupipi from their bags, I found something seriously TOUCHING! Something that is a lot better than a birthday card even if its just 2 pieces of paper. It still feel sweet no matter how many time I read it. ^^
10th July: Birthday~
Forced Audrey to say out their plans and sleep at 2 something, near 3 am. @.@ But it was the sweetest night ever I can say. ^^
Went to Sunway Pyramid to watch Twilight: Eclipse with Audrey~ The movie was ok, more to romance and less action, not like what we saw in the trailer. Even the battle was a bit too erm... Fast? Edward is pity in this ep, that's what I felt la. But nvm~ Jacob is handsome~! =p

Then, went to Genting for buffet dinner~! And baby followed us there!!! =p First genting trip with family plus baby! Though not a really great trip, not a really great dinner but then its special. Really very special and again, sweet (I am sorry if I use the word sweet too many times, but then its the truth). ^^ And that is really one of my best birthday present. =p
Perhaps, birthday is not really that important but it is still special, a day when you are born to this world, a day when you start your journey of life. No matter how you live your life, you will not have a chance to if there is no such a day known as YOUR BIRTHDAY. Hmmm, why making it sounds so serious and complicated... >< Anyway, for me, I just have a little wish which is to spend this day with my love ones, and this year, I did it. ^^ My parents, my sisters and my boyfriend.
9th of July:
Had been looking forward to this day and I was not disappointed by even a tiny bit. Baby had planned it well and there is just 3 words to describe it -- SWEET LIKE MAD
Baby and I chosen karaoke to spend our time before dinner. We went to Redbox Gardens for the buffet lunch and seriously had a great time there. Its like almost a month since I went to sing k so yea, we enjoyed ourselves~ ^^ Singing all the songs with baby was just sweet~ =D
And after Singing k, this baby started giving me surprise. The blur blur baby made me believed in his lies and suddenly appear outside the car with 2 big creatures. And OMG, its my CUPIDO and CUPIPI! I seriously never expect him to buy me those because... Refer to one of my post. Seriously, damn touched k? I know I sounded like a little girl loving all these soft toys but they are seriously super cute and I waited for like a year d! What more when they are given to you by your beloved? Cos they represent love~! Thank you baby!!!!!! Will take photo of them after they took their bath~ ^^
Then, we had dinner at Bintang Revolving Restaurant @ Federal Hotel~ Baby gave me 3 choices but in the end I chose a place which is not in the 3 choices. Feel so evil. =p Overall, the food was ok, not to say very nice but still worth it 'cos of the atmosphere and not-bad-view. ^^ Most importantly is, went there with baby~ ^^
Then, we had dinner at Bintang Revolving Restaurant @ Federal Hotel~ Baby gave me 3 choices but in the end I chose a place which is not in the 3 choices. Feel so evil. =p Overall, the food was ok, not to say very nice but still worth it 'cos of the atmosphere and not-bad-view. ^^ Most importantly is, went there with baby~ ^^
Then, we were supposed to go Ampang Look-Out-Point. But, my parents were nagging for going out til very late (it was only 9 plus...) and the traffic was jam like mad. Seriously, stuck in a dunno-what-is-going-on jam for like 15 mins, basically, there were jam in any road we used. So... Gave up since I promised mum to be back by 11. >< Not disappointed though because that was just an extra bonus of the night and I had already seen the night view of KL in the restaurant. ^^
Then, my baby was so busy with messages when he was driving me home. Luckily his driving skills is good enough... LOL! That pig dunno why suddenly looks so emo, so I thought he was just too tired. 4 hours of karaoke session by 2 person only was not easy le. Haha.
Anyway, reached home and had baby to stay at my house til at least 12 am to countdown my birthday. ^^ Audrey was there too cos since last year she will be staying over at my place to countdown with me too. =p When I went upstairs to find my mum, she passed me a present from my aunt. Its a romper~ (I always thought I can never fit into one because of my super weird proportion, like what baby said: 30:70... >< But this 1 was just nice le~ Really thank you! Haha.)
Audrey made me try that romper and that 2 devil (audrey and baby) were busy chatting. I thought they were insulting each other again. LOL! But, after I am done fitting into that romper and wanted to show them, I WAS SHOCKED~ Guess what, they are carrying a cake outside my room and singing Birthday song! Even my mum was part of it. ><"
Seriously, it was really very sweet! To have you love ones planning a surprise for you and feel more sweet after knowing the process of planning. I Love You Mummy, Audrey and Shaun! And baby, you are really crazeeeee in a super good and sweet way!!!!!!! I am really happy to be blur~! It really works because I seriously did not suspect a single thing. ><
Ohya, And when I took out my Cupido and Cupipi from their bags, I found something seriously TOUCHING! Something that is a lot better than a birthday card even if its just 2 pieces of paper. It still feel sweet no matter how many time I read it. ^^
10th July: Birthday~
Forced Audrey to say out their plans and sleep at 2 something, near 3 am. @.@ But it was the sweetest night ever I can say. ^^
Went to Sunway Pyramid to watch Twilight: Eclipse with Audrey~ The movie was ok, more to romance and less action, not like what we saw in the trailer. Even the battle was a bit too erm... Fast? Edward is pity in this ep, that's what I felt la. But nvm~ Jacob is handsome~! =p
Then, went to Genting for buffet dinner~! And baby followed us there!!! =p First genting trip with family plus baby! Though not a really great trip, not a really great dinner but then its special. Really very special and again, sweet (I am sorry if I use the word sweet too many times, but then its the truth). ^^ And that is really one of my best birthday present. =p
Monday, July 5, 2010
Taiwan and Gathering~
Weeee~ Back from Taiwan and this is the place that I love the most! Super nice o~! Dan Shui Lovers Bridge (Direct translation). Haha.
Took a lot of photos, around 1300 I think? LOL! So I am toooooo lazy to upload all. =p Just post this pic up cos its really a very nice place, will definitely go again just to take photos cos there is no shops there, except restaurants. Also recommended to go there during evening, nicer and all the shops will be opened. LOL! And look, that's my parents~! Muax!
Anyway, ate a lot and here are some food that are really recommended. Haha! I am like a pro in food d. LOL! Joking la, what I ate is not even 10% of the nice food in Taipei. ^^
My NO.1 favourite! Chong Zhua bing, kinda like roti canai but very much nicer than roti canai! Why cant we have it in Msia?????!!!!

Black Pepper roasted pork. Super duper nice! Ordered 2 plates~
WEEEEE~ Mr.J's restaurant~ Food not bad but most importantly is, Jay Chou's shop!
Mango ice~ The mango were sweet n the syrup is really made from mango le. Super fresh oso. Nice nice nice!
Oyster Mee Sua~! And its not ordinary mee sua o, its Ah Chung Mee Sua, I guess the most famous mee sua in Taiwan? LOL!
Took a lot of photos, around 1300 I think? LOL! So I am toooooo lazy to upload all. =p Just post this pic up cos its really a very nice place, will definitely go again just to take photos cos there is no shops there, except restaurants. Also recommended to go there during evening, nicer and all the shops will be opened. LOL! And look, that's my parents~! Muax!
Kinda famous I think but the food ok la, just the 2 below are recommended, their famous noodles are not really that nice though~
Busy after coming back from Taiwan. Met A-Levels gang on the second day~! Had lunch in White and everyone ordered the same old food... Chicken Rice! What makes it nicer? The memories! ^^
Watched Ip Man with Keen, Cheong n Ian~! Then became a light bulb which was sooooo bright. Luckily that love birds aka Jonathan and Yee went movie after I kacau them for half an hour. Yee got me a bday present too! *Big hugs n flying kisses*
Then, rest for a day and went for my Primary school gathering. As usual, more like an outing or lunch session but it's great to see a different gang every gathering. The constant attendees: Me n Yeh Vin! Many ffk last minute though. Anyway, great to see them!
Watched Ip Man with Keen, Cheong n Ian~! Then became a light bulb which was sooooo bright. Luckily that love birds aka Jonathan and Yee went movie after I kacau them for half an hour. Yee got me a bday present too! *Big hugs n flying kisses*
Then, rest for a day and went for my Primary school gathering. As usual, more like an outing or lunch session but it's great to see a different gang every gathering. The constant attendees: Me n Yeh Vin! Many ffk last minute though. Anyway, great to see them!
Friday, July 2, 2010
T.R.U.T.H
Nobody is perfect and hence you can never find someone who is totally fulfill the criteria of a perfect partner. There is something that you will need to try to accept for you to get something else that you want. Is the thing that you want worth you accepting something that you will not accept? In other words, is the person worth your love?
Maybe, people will say that love is love, there is nothing about worth it or not. Love him and you should not be calculating too much. Love is not a mathematics question, no calculation should be involved, there is nothing about who sacrifice more and hence deserve more love. Its only about TOLERATING and how to make the relationship work in a two-way manners. It is just like crossing a bridge where only one person can go across at a time. If you do not want to tolerate and let the other person cross first, neither of you can cross. The bridge will eventually break due to the pressure and weight, and now, nobody can go through. You may feel that why should you be that noble and be the one who tolerate, but remember, he or she might be tolerating too, it is only you did not realise. Even some small things like letting you choose what you want to have for dinner is a kind of tolerating, though you may think that he or she cannot make up his own mind. This is because they know that there is nothing much they can do to make you happy, and since tolerating you and let you choose they things you like can make you smile, they will do it.
Someone says, Love is Blind. Even you did not accept, but because you love the person, you tend to focus on your love and ignore the other issues that you can neither tolerate or accept. But, in a long term, when both of you gets closer and there is not much fear of losing each other, problems will come. At this moment, I guess what comes into play is not only tolerating, but also RESPECT. Respect each others' choice and decision they made for their life. You can go into their life, but not interrupt their life. You might be important in their life, but you are not the only one present. There are many other parties that they will need to take into account, like friends. And if the person is willing to tolerate, even not until the extend you expected or hope, it is already enough and worth you respecting. What more if their words are kept and what you said are remembered. Moreover, if you already know in the beginning that complaining will not make much difference, why not you try respecting? Respect does not mean support. It is just like two rough surfaces, you know you cannot remove the friction unless you make the surfaces extremely smooth. If making the surface smooth is impossible, why not add a lubricant? It will not remove all the friction, but at least some.
Perhaps, many including me may think that in the beginning of a relationship, everyone can make a lot of promises and tolerate a lot, but this will fade with time. They tend to not remember what they said, expecting you to tolerate and understand. For some, I think is because they really take things for granted since they are immature. There are also some people who knows that there is something that is being built with time, TRUST. They trust each other and know deep down in the heart that they know whatever they are doing, the another half will understand. Sometimes, this may be a good thing, provided they do not take this trust for granted and starting to betray their partner. Time can prove everything, its only whether the truth is the one you wanna see or the one that hurt you to the maximum. But, it is just part of your life and at least, you know the truth. You can know that whether your insecure feelings are merely because you do not have enough confidence in yourself and your partner or really because your partner do not worth your trust.
Everyone hurt a lot of people in their life and everyone is hurt by many people too. Phobia will be developed, heart will have cracks here and there. However, you learned lessons which you can't find on any books. I know this sounds so much like the line we always write in our essays back in primary or secondary school, but yea, you learned something which you will remember for your life because you were once very down but you stood up again. I can only say that your next one will be slightly more lucky because you learned your mistake in the past relationship and hence, will try not to repeat it. Also, you will learn how to look from other people's point of view and try to UNDERSTAND why they have such decision. You will be mad, you will be disappointed, but when you make an effort to understand, you will know that you should not be angry over anything and blame anyone for that because sometimes they do not mean to make the decision or the decision might be the best for them at the moment. (sorry for stealing some1's line~ =P).
Lastly, Love with you HEART. Your heart can feel things that you may not be able to see or hear. Your mind might be affected by the words others say, be it offending or so sweet that melts you, but your heart is always the one who tell you what exactly you feel.
If you still want maths:
Love = Tolerating + Respect + Understanding + Trust + Heart
Maybe, people will say that love is love, there is nothing about worth it or not. Love him and you should not be calculating too much. Love is not a mathematics question, no calculation should be involved, there is nothing about who sacrifice more and hence deserve more love. Its only about TOLERATING and how to make the relationship work in a two-way manners. It is just like crossing a bridge where only one person can go across at a time. If you do not want to tolerate and let the other person cross first, neither of you can cross. The bridge will eventually break due to the pressure and weight, and now, nobody can go through. You may feel that why should you be that noble and be the one who tolerate, but remember, he or she might be tolerating too, it is only you did not realise. Even some small things like letting you choose what you want to have for dinner is a kind of tolerating, though you may think that he or she cannot make up his own mind. This is because they know that there is nothing much they can do to make you happy, and since tolerating you and let you choose they things you like can make you smile, they will do it.
Someone says, Love is Blind. Even you did not accept, but because you love the person, you tend to focus on your love and ignore the other issues that you can neither tolerate or accept. But, in a long term, when both of you gets closer and there is not much fear of losing each other, problems will come. At this moment, I guess what comes into play is not only tolerating, but also RESPECT. Respect each others' choice and decision they made for their life. You can go into their life, but not interrupt their life. You might be important in their life, but you are not the only one present. There are many other parties that they will need to take into account, like friends. And if the person is willing to tolerate, even not until the extend you expected or hope, it is already enough and worth you respecting. What more if their words are kept and what you said are remembered. Moreover, if you already know in the beginning that complaining will not make much difference, why not you try respecting? Respect does not mean support. It is just like two rough surfaces, you know you cannot remove the friction unless you make the surfaces extremely smooth. If making the surface smooth is impossible, why not add a lubricant? It will not remove all the friction, but at least some.
Perhaps, many including me may think that in the beginning of a relationship, everyone can make a lot of promises and tolerate a lot, but this will fade with time. They tend to not remember what they said, expecting you to tolerate and understand. For some, I think is because they really take things for granted since they are immature. There are also some people who knows that there is something that is being built with time, TRUST. They trust each other and know deep down in the heart that they know whatever they are doing, the another half will understand. Sometimes, this may be a good thing, provided they do not take this trust for granted and starting to betray their partner. Time can prove everything, its only whether the truth is the one you wanna see or the one that hurt you to the maximum. But, it is just part of your life and at least, you know the truth. You can know that whether your insecure feelings are merely because you do not have enough confidence in yourself and your partner or really because your partner do not worth your trust.
Everyone hurt a lot of people in their life and everyone is hurt by many people too. Phobia will be developed, heart will have cracks here and there. However, you learned lessons which you can't find on any books. I know this sounds so much like the line we always write in our essays back in primary or secondary school, but yea, you learned something which you will remember for your life because you were once very down but you stood up again. I can only say that your next one will be slightly more lucky because you learned your mistake in the past relationship and hence, will try not to repeat it. Also, you will learn how to look from other people's point of view and try to UNDERSTAND why they have such decision. You will be mad, you will be disappointed, but when you make an effort to understand, you will know that you should not be angry over anything and blame anyone for that because sometimes they do not mean to make the decision or the decision might be the best for them at the moment. (sorry for stealing some1's line~ =P).
Lastly, Love with you HEART. Your heart can feel things that you may not be able to see or hear. Your mind might be affected by the words others say, be it offending or so sweet that melts you, but your heart is always the one who tell you what exactly you feel.
If you still want maths:
Love = Tolerating + Respect + Understanding + Trust + Heart
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Rotting in progress...
OMG~! I am rotting at home! Well, actually no... Basically, I have something to do everyday.
Had been going to Fitness First for 3 days. The Fitness First Platinum in Empire is cool cos they have a real nice swimming pool. Not to say very big, but just nice. =p However, I did not lose weight, in fact, I gained weight~! Running on treadmill for half an hour after a heavy meal just burn away less than 10% of the calories. Swimming another 5% perhaps? Abdominal crunch machine is nice though, hope I can have 1 at home! ^^ Also, went to this body jam class. Everything was so fast, cha cha to mambo to salsa to samba then basic steps etc... I cannot follow!!! Confused all the steps but its still tiring! =p Free membership is until 22nd and I guess I do not have the chance to go anymore.
And guess what, Nich darl is back! So do most of the A-Levels UK gang!!! Luckily I managed to meet Nichelle on 18th after I got my bloody results which really sux... ><>< Come to my house and play with my make up set! N sleepover... Miss those days...
Yea... Results is out. I could have done better. B07 and A08. I wonder why I can lose so many marks, though kinda expected I will lose a lot of marks. WTH i am talking? Yayaya, as in, I do not expect that many marks... Expected slightly less. Stupid mistake done in B07! The most annoying part is: A lecturer deducting marks from your assignments for exceeding word counts when he told you it is ok to exceed the word count! And that you had confirmed with him for 3 times! Also when the marks you were supposed to get and you are getting are on 2 extremities! If I failed that module, I would have destroy his whole office, sue him, make him lose his job, complain to UK Nott, make it on press! K, joking... I do not have that power la... Though I have the rights. =p N I suddenly feel that Mr. Wong is much better... ^^
It's going to be a weight gaining week for me starting today! Umaiyah Jap buffet Lunch today to celebrate Father's Day and family dinner for all the fathers in my family... And... TAIWAN TRIP! Yes!!! Arranged all the schedule by looking for directions to places on google maps~ However, food is not the most important thing here... The most important is... SHOPPING! OMG, i have so many things to buy... Boots, bag, purse, dresses, shirts, skirts, shorts etc. How I wish my luggage weight limit were 100 kg and no limited budget by dad. ><
And, I started watching football... I do not know why and Even my mum wonders why. LOL! Did not watch all the matched cos Stadium Astro is no where in sight in my house. >< Germany, Spain and England... I do not know what happen to them, maybe they were under pressure knowing I was watching them? Higuain was overwhelmed knowing me supporting him and hence, scoring 3 goals in the match? Pudolski knows I do not like him as much as Higuain, Messi and Torres so he could not perform well cos unable to focus? *fantasy-ing*wake up from dream* Wonders who will enter semi, finals and become champion... Have high hopes on Spain though. But... K, I am not really a great fans of whichever country, so just watch! But gonna miss a lot of matches! Nvm, it's worth it~
Had been going to Fitness First for 3 days. The Fitness First Platinum in Empire is cool cos they have a real nice swimming pool. Not to say very big, but just nice. =p However, I did not lose weight, in fact, I gained weight~! Running on treadmill for half an hour after a heavy meal just burn away less than 10% of the calories. Swimming another 5% perhaps? Abdominal crunch machine is nice though, hope I can have 1 at home! ^^ Also, went to this body jam class. Everything was so fast, cha cha to mambo to salsa to samba then basic steps etc... I cannot follow!!! Confused all the steps but its still tiring! =p Free membership is until 22nd and I guess I do not have the chance to go anymore.
And guess what, Nich darl is back! So do most of the A-Levels UK gang!!! Luckily I managed to meet Nichelle on 18th after I got my bloody results which really sux... ><>< Come to my house and play with my make up set! N sleepover... Miss those days...
Yea... Results is out. I could have done better. B07 and A08. I wonder why I can lose so many marks, though kinda expected I will lose a lot of marks. WTH i am talking? Yayaya, as in, I do not expect that many marks... Expected slightly less. Stupid mistake done in B07! The most annoying part is: A lecturer deducting marks from your assignments for exceeding word counts when he told you it is ok to exceed the word count! And that you had confirmed with him for 3 times! Also when the marks you were supposed to get and you are getting are on 2 extremities! If I failed that module, I would have destroy his whole office, sue him, make him lose his job, complain to UK Nott, make it on press! K, joking... I do not have that power la... Though I have the rights. =p N I suddenly feel that Mr. Wong is much better... ^^
It's going to be a weight gaining week for me starting today! Umaiyah Jap buffet Lunch today to celebrate Father's Day and family dinner for all the fathers in my family... And... TAIWAN TRIP! Yes!!! Arranged all the schedule by looking for directions to places on google maps~ However, food is not the most important thing here... The most important is... SHOPPING! OMG, i have so many things to buy... Boots, bag, purse, dresses, shirts, skirts, shorts etc. How I wish my luggage weight limit were 100 kg and no limited budget by dad. ><
And, I started watching football... I do not know why and Even my mum wonders why. LOL! Did not watch all the matched cos Stadium Astro is no where in sight in my house. >< Germany, Spain and England... I do not know what happen to them, maybe they were under pressure knowing I was watching them? Higuain was overwhelmed knowing me supporting him and hence, scoring 3 goals in the match? Pudolski knows I do not like him as much as Higuain, Messi and Torres so he could not perform well cos unable to focus? *fantasy-ing*wake up from dream* Wonders who will enter semi, finals and become champion... Have high hopes on Spain though. But... K, I am not really a great fans of whichever country, so just watch! But gonna miss a lot of matches! Nvm, it's worth it~
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Fair?
This world is never fair...
People always say that good people will be rewarded after doing a good deed while those who committed crimes will be punished. I guess this is just another piece of crap? If it is true, why are we looking at all those unsolved cases which we can actually tell the truth with slight common sense? Why are we looking at some 'suspects' who can still be working after being reported? Evidence was insufficient? Or perhaps just disappeared suddenly like wind? Or because the victims are not important enough?
Sometimes, innocent people need to bear the consequences of the mistake done by other people, who might be totally unrelated to them. Those people who made mistake experience no harm, no pain and might not even know what they had done. Perhaps, even if they know, sometimes, sorry is the only word they can say. The rest of the things, just leave it to the innocent people. They will have ways to make things right? Nice excuse...
Some people can be so rich while some can't even get to have a meal in a day. I wonder how does it feel like to be in a living hall as big as a restaurant or a golden washroom watching some TV programs on how the African child suffers. Will they have slight guilt of being such a big spender? Perhaps they wont... Rich n poor, I guess its just to balance up the world?
Today, saw a bunch of girls smoking in a restaurant. Was sitting there for less than an hour and they had smoked at least 5 cigarettes each. Basically, my food was being polluted by 4000 types of chemicals including some carcinogens. I am again 1 step closer to getting pulmonary emphysema, lung cancer etc. How about them? Maybe less harm since inhaled sidestream smoke is about four times more toxic than mainstream smoke. Sometimes, I find this fact amusing...
Also, some people just have the luck to excel in everything, getting everything they want. Their timing is just so right that you cannot be jealous. The people they met is right, the timing they do something is right, and even the opportunity they got is so good. Fair? There is always some luck involve, so perhaps fair n square never exist.
I used to know some1 who scored 6As in PMR and know what? She was one of the worst student in the school. Luck helped her in the exam? I guess so... Not because she memorized the right thing, is because she was not caught playing truant. What can the other students who studied hard but still get a worse results say? Nothing. Who can they turn to to ask for fairness?
Perhaps, thinking from other point of view, lacking of fairness motivates people to work harder, so that they can compensate the lack of luck with their efforts. Anyway, just work hard and make sure we can answer to ourselves and those we love. Living a normal life without feeling guilty is actually very satisfying. =p
People always say that good people will be rewarded after doing a good deed while those who committed crimes will be punished. I guess this is just another piece of crap? If it is true, why are we looking at all those unsolved cases which we can actually tell the truth with slight common sense? Why are we looking at some 'suspects' who can still be working after being reported? Evidence was insufficient? Or perhaps just disappeared suddenly like wind? Or because the victims are not important enough?
Sometimes, innocent people need to bear the consequences of the mistake done by other people, who might be totally unrelated to them. Those people who made mistake experience no harm, no pain and might not even know what they had done. Perhaps, even if they know, sometimes, sorry is the only word they can say. The rest of the things, just leave it to the innocent people. They will have ways to make things right? Nice excuse...
Some people can be so rich while some can't even get to have a meal in a day. I wonder how does it feel like to be in a living hall as big as a restaurant or a golden washroom watching some TV programs on how the African child suffers. Will they have slight guilt of being such a big spender? Perhaps they wont... Rich n poor, I guess its just to balance up the world?
Today, saw a bunch of girls smoking in a restaurant. Was sitting there for less than an hour and they had smoked at least 5 cigarettes each. Basically, my food was being polluted by 4000 types of chemicals including some carcinogens. I am again 1 step closer to getting pulmonary emphysema, lung cancer etc. How about them? Maybe less harm since inhaled sidestream smoke is about four times more toxic than mainstream smoke. Sometimes, I find this fact amusing...
Also, some people just have the luck to excel in everything, getting everything they want. Their timing is just so right that you cannot be jealous. The people they met is right, the timing they do something is right, and even the opportunity they got is so good. Fair? There is always some luck involve, so perhaps fair n square never exist.
I used to know some1 who scored 6As in PMR and know what? She was one of the worst student in the school. Luck helped her in the exam? I guess so... Not because she memorized the right thing, is because she was not caught playing truant. What can the other students who studied hard but still get a worse results say? Nothing. Who can they turn to to ask for fairness?
Perhaps, thinking from other point of view, lacking of fairness motivates people to work harder, so that they can compensate the lack of luck with their efforts. Anyway, just work hard and make sure we can answer to ourselves and those we love. Living a normal life without feeling guilty is actually very satisfying. =p
Friday, June 4, 2010
☆ Updates ☆
2nd week of Summer holidays~ And I am still doing nothing except going out until my mum give out warning that I cannot go out anymore!
N... I finally got 'my' Jay Chou's album. The box is not bad la, quite nice, the Jay's pic in front has a 3D effect, but other than that... Its just a NORMAL METAL BOX. Never mind, spend RM 75 to make my dear sis happy is worth it, I hope? Have not really listen to the songs yet, though it had been in my lap top for almost a week. I kept on forgetting its existence. =P
Dinner with Baby and his friends in Taylor's Lakeside Campus. =P I had been there last week and last week's menu was more to western style and this time, Asian cuisine. Salad... Erm... I seldom eat young mango. =P Main course... Lamb was a bit burnt, Chicken was not bad. Dessert... The kuih talam was not cooked or I dunno, feels like cheese of pandan flavour. Haha. Anyway, main thing is get to be with some1. ^^
*poke the bubble cheeks*



But, we ended up leaving the event at around 9.30 because we were all sitting in the training stadium, doing nothing except chatting n cam-whoring. We were supposed to go sing k and watch movie in Sunway Pyramid or MV. But, we do not have enough transport and singing k at that time is seriously expensive. Then Nora came up with this idea which is to stay over in her place~! So... There goes my 1st KTM experience. Haha. Seriously, 1st time using KTM and 1st time using LRT with friends. Luckily we managed to catch the last KTM at 11pm.
Then, we walked all the way to Empire Gallery to realise that Starbucks is closed, so took cab to AC. Missed Snowflakes, but had a great time chatting n eating there. ^^ Shower and watched movie in Nora's hse. Had a really great time throughout the night and also receiving some super cute and sweet calls from my precious bday boy. =P
Also, went out with Chee Yuen for Snowflakes! Missed twice and finally get to eat. Really not bad. =P Actually, Chee Yuen was committing a crime by bringing me there because he could have got me killed by giving a fever and flu patient a whole big bowl of ice. =P But still worth it~
And Mummy finally knows about me n baby. Was supposed to tell her ourselves, but she asked me in a really weird but cute n indirect way, so just admit it. Though got a lot of lectures, most importantly, I am not lying to her anymore. =P Daddy asked also, but I just told him not yet but soon... Luckily he did not really go against. ^^
Baby company me to watch 大日子 Woohoo!... Yes... I just watched it after like almost 4 months?
It was 11 pm when we got back to room and still... Non-stop cam-whoring while resting before going to Starbucks to on9~ Webcam with baby! Miss him...
There is 1 thing I seriously hate about 1st World Hotel. The workers of Ripley's Believe it or Not always try to scare people by dressing into ghost. This is still ok, the creepy part is they will start chasing you when you try to avoid them. This time, one of them chased us into Nike and still wait at the window, staring at us like a real ghost! Screw them!!!! Last time was carrying a bloody head into the lift and put it in front of my little cousin. So not ethical!
Anyway, I am currently watching a new HK drama 谈情说案, Mysteries of Love by Tavia Yeung, Raymond Lam and Kenneth Ma. Raymond Lam is so handsome ar!!! He looks super duper good in his formal attire, plus his genius physics brain and gentleman character! OMG! The drama is actually a HK version of Detective Galileo which is soooooo much nicer than this HK 1. The first few eps is kinda lame la, 'cos crimes are solved so easily and makes the police looks so stupid lo. Some really easy problems also can't solve...
Then, I went to this Relay for Life event in Bkt Jalil's Majis Sukan Negara. This event was organised by National Cancer Society and I thought it should be fun... But... Things do not end up as what we expected. Me n Nora reached there at like 5 pm and no1 from PharmNotts was there and we cannot collect out shirts etc. Went to walk around and nothing is ready, except for some performances. I was being really unlucky 'cos I brought my camera, but WITHOUT MEMORY CARD, changed my N97 to a really old phone which can't take nice pics. Fine... Then, It started raining so me n nora was forced to wait under a big umbrella and we ended up in the middle of the field.
Lily they all finally reached and there was a super long queue in front of the washroom. Forced to walk all the way to a food court near Stadium Putra to change. Also realised nothing to eat, so called McD delivery. =P After that, walked on the muddy field, taking photos with LOCAL celebrities and played game to win a lip gloss. =P
Lily they all finally reached and there was a super long queue in front of the washroom. Forced to walk all the way to a food court near Stadium Putra to change. Also realised nothing to eat, so called McD delivery. =P After that, walked on the muddy field, taking photos with LOCAL celebrities and played game to win a lip gloss. =P



But, we ended up leaving the event at around 9.30 because we were all sitting in the training stadium, doing nothing except chatting n cam-whoring. We were supposed to go sing k and watch movie in Sunway Pyramid or MV. But, we do not have enough transport and singing k at that time is seriously expensive. Then Nora came up with this idea which is to stay over in her place~! So... There goes my 1st KTM experience. Haha. Seriously, 1st time using KTM and 1st time using LRT with friends. Luckily we managed to catch the last KTM at 11pm.
Then, we walked all the way to Empire Gallery to realise that Starbucks is closed, so took cab to AC. Missed Snowflakes, but had a great time chatting n eating there. ^^ Shower and watched movie in Nora's hse. Had a really great time throughout the night and also receiving some super cute and sweet calls from my precious bday boy. =P
Also, went out with Chee Yuen for Snowflakes! Missed twice and finally get to eat. Really not bad. =P Actually, Chee Yuen was committing a crime by bringing me there because he could have got me killed by giving a fever and flu patient a whole big bowl of ice. =P But still worth it~
And Mummy finally knows about me n baby. Was supposed to tell her ourselves, but she asked me in a really weird but cute n indirect way, so just admit it. Though got a lot of lectures, most importantly, I am not lying to her anymore. =P Daddy asked also, but I just told him not yet but soon... Luckily he did not really go against. ^^
Went up to Genting and just reached home... Eat eat eat and shop shop shop. Brought back a lot of things. Esp FATS! ><
There is 1 thing I seriously hate about 1st World Hotel. The workers of Ripley's Believe it or Not always try to scare people by dressing into ghost. This is still ok, the creepy part is they will start chasing you when you try to avoid them. This time, one of them chased us into Nike and still wait at the window, staring at us like a real ghost! Screw them!!!! Last time was carrying a bloody head into the lift and put it in front of my little cousin. So not ethical!
Anyway, I am currently watching a new HK drama 谈情说案, Mysteries of Love by Tavia Yeung, Raymond Lam and Kenneth Ma. Raymond Lam is so handsome ar!!! He looks super duper good in his formal attire, plus his genius physics brain and gentleman character! OMG! The drama is actually a HK version of Detective Galileo which is soooooo much nicer than this HK 1. The first few eps is kinda lame la, 'cos crimes are solved so easily and makes the police looks so stupid lo. Some really easy problems also can't solve...
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