Random #4 你世界里的不孤单是我的寂寞

Maybe you never realize...

Your unlonely made me feel pathetic.

Sarcastically, you was always the one who make me feel unlonely.

Why am I feeling that I am all alone recently?

I hate this. I hate it when I only have a lifeless report to be with me every hour, minute and even second.

I hope I will feel better on the last day of this (lunar calendar) year.

I will. Even without seeing you at all. And facing my report alone. I swear I will.

Memories~

Finally, after spending 4-5 months emo-ing, she is finally here. Seriously, I need to control my stress and diet better. (Well, another new year resolution that is a mission impossible?) Maybe it will be possible if EXAM does not exist. ^^

Well, done with my Y2S3 exam, 1st and last paper were okay, the 2nd and 3rd... OMG. 2nd still okay, 3rd paper: MICROBIOLOGY. My long time enemy. Just hoping for the best~ 40 marks shouldn't be a problem, I HOPE.

Went Mont Kiara for me and baby's early monthsary dinner in Porto Romano, thanks to Peng for recommending~ Really a nice place with nice food and atmosphere.

Upstairs of the restaurant, downstairs is more like a bar~ ^^ I love the decorations there, especially the fake fireplace.

Baby's food~ Carbonara with beef bacon (A dish that he will never miss)

My main course~ Salmon Cannelloni

Then last week, dad brought back a few super nice photo frames, I don't know where he got them from. Anyway, mum was busy looking for some old photos and realised... We do not have photos printed out these few years, all are in the laptop. So, mum took my childhood photos instead. It was really sweet looking back at the baby me, and I kept asking myself, is that really me? There is this photo, me and my ah mah (grandma)... Seriously, I miss her so much. Memories with her are memories that I will never want to forget, but I guess I cannot control my brain to store most of them. Just hope these photos will recall my memories.

Me and my grandmother when I was one month old~

And I found this picture too~ When I was 5 I think, at my aunt's wedding with cousin sis~ This girl looks so pretty and does not look like me! How I wish I had that look now. =p

And, I was a bit bored and tired of doing my report just now so went to my friendster page, yeah, that long-gone friendster. LOL! Surprisingly, I still remember my password and shocked to see some friends are still active. Went on to find my precious' page, some of his old photos and he really does not look the same now. Seriously, so different. Then went on to some blogs, and found my precious again. Some photos stabbed my heart but I know deep down, those are over. He's mine now.

Random #3

Just one sentence, I can be drag from sky to hell. It's that powerful. Why must I let my emotions be controlled? Sometimes I wonder if, putting down the strong side is a correct option.

I was just hoping you to tell me what is wrong. You wouldn't know how much I cannot concentrate, how hard I was trying to tell myself its okay, how difficult it had been for me to distract myself.

Finally, the wish comes true and why am I not happy? Maybe its not exactly the wish I made.

Maybe, I should not have expectations and believe in myself in the very start.

And O.M.G... The report is stressing me out! Tables--->Graphs. All the word limits, all the description, summary, conclusion... Someone please save me from all these crap before CNY starts!

Seriously, why do we Pharmacy student need to suffer like this when other people have the time to play around during HOLIDAYS. Yes, a freaking MICROBIOLOGY REPORT during HOLIDAYS!

I wish I could be a baby again, wrapped in my grandmother and parents' arm. There would be so little thing to worry about, so little things to stress you out when you do not know what is stress and worry. You wouldn't love, except your toys which will never ever break your heart. That is why, I still love soft toys. They would not hug you back when you hug them, but at least, they mend your broken heart and will never ever leave you. They are all you have and always there for you when you need someone. Especially on such a night. XOXO, my babies~

珊瑚海

寻找身边的另一半，是要看对方和你的缘分？还是个性能否互补？或是有多少共同点？

海鸟和鱼。。。注定是有缘的，共同点也不少，至少，对自由的渴望是一样的。也许，懂得珍惜对方也是他们的共同点。 个性互补吗？看的世界不同，理所当然地可以互补。

只是。。。 这样就能使彼此生命里，一直寻找的，遗失的那一块吗？

海鸟和鱼，永远不可能在一起，不是吗？海鸟，在海面上；鱼，在海水里。要靠近对方，该受的苦有多大，应该想象得到吧。海鸟，要承受的，是海面上不断迎面而来的海浪；鱼儿，要忍受一时的缺氧，不能呼吸的痛苦。

幸福？当然有。幸福过后，冷静的思考，其实，那样值得吗？海鸟，不可能为了鱼儿，待在海里；鱼儿，不可能为了海鸟飞上天上去。

就算彼此的世界有一丝丝的接触，那也不过是一个不能触碰的边界。跨过了那条界限，只会发现，根本不应该踏入那个世界。

海鸟和鱼，相爱了，到最后，也许只是一场美丽的意外。

意外就像一场梦，看清了，就该醒了吧。

生命里，爱上了错的人，痛的不是因为被伤害了，而是明明还很爱，却因为不能爱上对方的所有优点缺点而被迫放弃。爱了却爱得不够，也许才是最痛苦的。


P/S：分手的原因有很多，不分手的原因呢？如果只是单纯的不想重新习惯没有对方的日子，又何苦紧紧握着，不舍得放开呢?
P/P/S: Just pure random thoughts, do not think too much. ^^

100th

100th post... Can I make 3 wishes?

Getting back my time management skills and can start studying asap~

VLVN and SSRH run well... Last week of stress next week! Please please attend VLVN and the talk~

Secret... Keeping it to myself. ^^

Seriously, time passes really fast, 80% of my job as VP in PharmNotts had been completed. Both me and Dian Han were so relieved. It just felt like yesterday when we were first chosen, so many things happened, so many problems and stresses. And now... Its going to over. Suddenly feel so empty and lifeless again. LOL!

Anyway, more time to myself, S.T.U.D.Y!

Year 2 Gambate! ^^V

Acne, Jealousy, WHATEVER!

Sleeping less than 5 hours a day is seriously no joke. Pimple start crawling up my forehead, multiplying there and forming colonies there. They are so special that they can only survive in dessert where there is no water supply. The more my skin dehydrate due to staying in freezing cold AC room for long hours and yet not drinking enough of water, the more the grow. They had already attained resistance to my acne cream, cleanser and every single thing I apply on my face to eradicate all of them. OMG, I am seriously worry about my face! Pimple please please go away k? I know you guys wanna let me know I am stress and I need more sleep. I got the message now, just leave me alone k? I Don't Love You!


But seriously, my life had been turning upside down this semester, going all around and not sleeping until 3 am. Earliest time I slept since the Sem starts is 2 am, and that's when I am in m house in Subang. LMAO. The library used to be my second home but now, there is no more second home for me~ If I am forced to say 1, I would say SA - Mr. Gerard's office, counseling department... Anyway, need to experience some crazy uni life here. ^^

Had been getting lectures from parents which really made me stressed out. I just hope they could be a bit more supportive, not sarcastic. Well, hope I can prove to them that what they think about my lifestyle are so wrong. ^^


Realised something...

Jealousy rises when you can't achieve the exact same thing like what others did.

And yes, this is such a common sense. But who will actually admit that:

He/She can but I cannot. He/She is good.

And how many people know the answer to this question:

Does it help you to attain that something, by just jealousy?

There are many answers to this question though. 1 might say yes, other might say no. Actually its yes and no. =p

If it became a motivation for you to go from good to better, just like what others achieved, then its a healthy jealousy.

If it makes you think of how to make that someone fall without improving yourself, then... Fool, you are wasting your time!



Another thing is, sometimes, jealousy in a relationship does not mean you do not trust your another half, its just you do not trust yourself that you can actually be as good as the person you are jealous of. In other way, you actually admire your competitor.

But seriously, if the person really love you, he should love you for who you are. Why worry that the some1 he is close with will take him away? If that really happens, meaning, he is not worth your love and your competitor is not really that great for you to be jealous of her.

Last question:

Is it better to live an imperfect lifestyle than to imitate others' lifestyle perfectly?

Perfection

Being a perfectionist just screw my life up.

Ya, maybe many things I have done came to a very nice end because of my pursue for perfection. I always do my very best to achieve the best outcome I can ever get. I can do anything just for it, deteriorating my health, sacrificing my outings or even going around begging for help. I never regret for being a perfectionist when it comes to things that involve me and only me. There are no worries that people might not be comfortable with my own principle, my own thoughts and my own way of dealing with things.

The perfectionism in me freaked me out when I am not the only one in the whole picture.

When people might only expect 70% from the project we are working on, I might be aiming for a 99%. There comes the great conflict. I will be working much more than the others, perhaps in the process let other thought that I am just trying to show off, and in the end stressing myself up, leaving myself thinking 'Why am I so worn out because of this which I do not gain any benefit or when others are doing much lesser?'. There is only one answer: Perfectionist. Sometimes, it really hurts a lot when others do not understand that you are just trying to get the best out of things we are doing, and thinks that its a way to humiliate them, telling them how good I am. But seriously, for those who have this thought in your mind, screw it please. I am just being a freak, hoping everything is done nicely, even if I am not gaining anything from it. I am just trying to carry out my responsibility in the best manner.

Intruding others' life, changing them from who they are to what I want them to be is such a normal thing for me to do. I mean normal, not easy. Seeing cousins neglecting the studies for games, dramas, or whatsoever make me scold them, make me trying to control their time management. This is really none of my business, not like their parents are not there to do that. Its just the thought that they must be like me, try my best to excel in studies, even if fail, at least try. I forgot that not everyone can be as perfectionist as me.

I can't help but to nag when seeing friends risking their health with cigarettes, weeds, alcohol or any kind of drugs coming into their life. I know those people who got words from me might feel really annoyed, thinking: 'Why the hell are you giving me lectures? Who are you?'. I totally understand but sorry, a perfectionist is not only looking for perfection in her life, but also people who are close to her. I will not give a damn to your life if you are just some hi-bye friend in my life. If you mean nothing to me, then the way you ruin your life will not affect the perfectibility of my life. I sound selfish huh? But too bad, I am selfish. I want my life to be as perfect as possible and I do not want you to leave my life. So I chose to introduce some good changes in your life, hopefully in a manner that both feel comfortable. A perfectionist cannot risk losing a friend in her life, more importantly, cannot risk having a friend losing his life. So, I might hate myself for being a perfectionist, giving you and myself burden, screwing up my friendships with people but in other way, I am glad that I am a perfectionist.

It is just that,

Sometimes, you love someone too much that you cannot stand to see his or her life change too much, to the extent that they will lose themselves when you left their life.

Sometimes, you love someone too much that you want to respect his or her choice and rather choose to hurt yourself, sacrificing your perfectionism.


But hey, people cannot be perfect, weigh the flaws yourself.


爱你，离开你。。。 静静的聆听，你幸福的回音。 A sad but nice song. Recent new love =p

Thank You

Even though I had been through times when I lost hope in some people, times of heart-break and felt like being left out, I really feel blissful to have a some friends who really loves me.

Even if we do not chat much, did not keep in contact for some time, I will still be remembered and things never feels awkward when we met. I will not forget how they lent me a helping hand when I was down, will not forget all the advice they gave me when I am being emotional, will not forget what we gossiped, will not forget all the moments we spent together.

Friends like you will be kept by my side forever. All the people I call dear, I call darling, I call sis, I call gor~ Really, thank you for being in my life.

Sometimes, I might feel lonely seeing people hanging out with a big bunch of friends, but seriously, among all those friends, how many can they share their secrets and problems with? Thinking of this, I really feel lucky to have all my dears and darlings to listen to my problems and secrets, all my gor and sis to understand my feelings. Thank You~

p/s: The source of this random post >>>
Chiam Shien Yin: You better go on9 everyday and tell me when you have any problems, I will be troubling you with my problems even if you are in UK!

100 days~

Read this really meaningful note on FB by a guy named Lim Yee Wee (Dunno him though, just state down his name since I do not know if I will violate the copyright. LOL).

刚搬进这个房子的那天，她整理完全部的东西，最后拿出一个非常精致的玻璃瓶，对他说道：“亲爱的，3个月内，你让我每哭一次，我就往里面加一滴水，代表我的眼泪。要是它满了，我就收拾我的东西离开这房子。”

　　男人不以为然，有点纳闷：“你们女人也太神经质了吧！就这么不信任我么，那还有什么可谈？我让你搬过来和我一起生活，是为了照顾你，不是欺负你的！”

　　女人说：“好男人不会让心爱的女人受一点点伤，我会记录下我为什么流泪，不会是莫名其妙的。”

　　“那好吧，抱抱～！”

　　两个月后，女人把那瓶子给男人看，说：“已经满一半了，在两个月内，我们是否有必要查看一下是什么问题呢？”说完递了一本精致的小笔记本给男人。

　　男人没有马上打开来看，他的表情里有一丝惊讶，还有点哭笑不得的意味，似乎没有想到女人的眼泪可以这么多，盛得这么快，又觉得女人是小题大作了，但是很可爱。

　　他打开本子开始看，惊讶女人怎么写了那么多。男人一边看着，女人一边说话：“第一次吵架，是在第3天，而且还是一大早，你刚醒来有点懵懂，挤的牙膏不知道怎么的飞到镜子上了，那是我刚擦干净的，我说你连挤牙膏都不会啊，你就来脾气了，然后吵起来……”

　　男人沉默着。女人继续说：“有天晚上我让你帮洗下那几件衣服，因为水太凉，你只顾着玩游戏迟迟不肯动，后来吵起来，我很失望你忘记了我的生理期不能碰冷水，委屈……”

　 　“还有一次，我很累了，你还不肯去洗澡睡觉，明明知道我特敏感，有点神经衰弱，哪怕一点点敲键盘的声音都能让我难以入睡，我一情急就说了你这个人自私的 话，我们吵起来，你说了一大堆辩论自己不自私自私的人是我之后甩门出去上网通宵，我打你电话你没拿我又不敢自己一个人去找你……”

　　女人这时候有点激动了，眼球开始泛红，说：“还有一次……”男人打断了她的话，“亲爱的，别说了……”

　　沉默…长久的沉默……

　　还是女人打破了沉默：“是不是我们真的不合适？如果是这样，结婚了还是会离婚吧？我们的个性都那么强，谁都不肯退让。”

　　气氛有点尴尬。

　 　本子里记录的事情都是那么细小的事情，每次吵架的原因都是那么的简单，男人看着这本子，似乎在体会着女人的心情，大男子是不会去计较这些小事，原本觉得 每次和好之后都没事，女人就爱拿这些来说事，但是当他认真去看的时候，他也开始难过了，女人很细心，把事件、心情都写了，还自己总结了一下原因。原来最微 小的事情累积起来是很让人痛苦的，他看得出，女人从失望慢慢变成绝望。

　　他想，大概是因为每次吵架，两人都是喜欢在吵架中找出对方不爱自己的证据。他突然意识到，这是个很严重的问题！而且每次吵架，双方都是在心情不稳定的时候，就是还有别的烦心事的时候，把不好的情绪带进了两个人的生活里。

　　“亲爱的别难过……”男人终于说话了：“我请个假，我们去旅游吧。”

　　他们去了第一次一起旅游的地方，太多美好的回忆被唤起，原来彼此是那么深深地爱着对方，这时的女人特别温柔，这时的男人特别体贴。

　　“亲爱的，你还认为我们结婚的话，会离婚么？”男人问。

　　“我想不是我们不合适，像现在，我们是那么快乐，一切都那么美好，可是一回到我们的现实生活里，为什么就变了呢？”

　　“亲爱的，难道我们现在不在现实里吗？”

　　“……”女人楞了。

　　“因为那时候我们都把注意力集中在负面的事物上并且放大了那些负面的心情。并且喜欢找对方不爱自己的证据，然后彼此个性都很倔不肯服输太要面子。”

　　女人觉得确实是如此，原来，双方只是需要一点点忍让，一点点包容。男人带她回顾这初次旅游的地点，是真的用心了，想起那时候他们在一起还不久，为了让对方觉得自己好，都表现出自己最好的一面。

　　“还有半个月，如果那瓶子还是半瓶，那么，亲爱的，嫁给我吧！”

　　女人钻进男人怀里笑开了颜

　 　后来他们结婚了。很少再吵架。如果粗心的男人不小心碰掉了杯子，女人不会再开口就骂，因为在女人开口之前，男人已经在道歉，说对不起，都是我不小心的， 赔两个给老婆！老婆尽管去选你喜欢的！女人就笑了，然后说，不用买啦，反正还有杯子，再说也不都是你的错，怪我自己没把杯子放好，让你碰到啦！

　　原来真的没有合适不合适，只有珍惜不珍惜，能一起走一起进步是幸福的！

Chose to post this up today because its a very special day. <3

Warning! PDA after this~ =p

There are times where we will feel that we are from totally different world, and some people might say that we are not meant for each other because of some different lifestyle. But I choose to care less about what other people say because its a two people thing.

The most important thing is I know how much you treasure me and you know how important you are to me.

There might be jealousy involved when we are dealing with something but I am really glad that we always open up to talk over it. Trust is not something easy to give so both of us must be proud that we are able to do so, even though it is just bit by bit. Yes, there are times when we feel insecure, we feel jealous, but just like what they said:

A little jealousy in a relationship is healthy, it is always nice to know someone's afraid to lose you.

Trust takes time to be built, and I know we can do it. ^^

Really thank you for being so understanding, sometimes I might turn you down on things, I might hurt your feelings when I threw my temper, but still, you tolerated with me and return all these not with scoldings not blames, but a cute smile. This means a lot to me. The evidence? See how you overcome my phobia? =p I used to think that tolerating doesn't help much but it is just because I had not met someone who can see it can understand it. But now, I believe in tolerating, understanding and communicating. ^^

Just hope every couple will tolerate with each other, just like the last sentence of the story up there, there is nothing about suitable or not, its only whether you cherish each other. ^^

(Sorry for PDA <3)>

Double

Sometimes, I really wonder... Is it worth it for you to do so much for something or someone? It is okay if they do not appreciate, but why must they take it for granted and even bite you back, hurting you as a payback.

Some people demand a lot from others while they cannot offer others anything. Sometimes things they do are just like a piece of worthless shyt and you will need to fix the situation for them. It hurts more when they look like the god from heaven and you look like the devil from hell in others eyes.

I hate such people.
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People always pursuit for something better in life and hence tends to change the things or people around you to meet the standard you set.

Actually, we do know that doing this make ourselves suffer, making our lives miserable but we just can't control. Things come so naturally that we seldom realize what we are doing until someone tell us.

But then, are we actually wrong? It may be suffering right now, but it will turn out great in the future. Just that people do not want to look at the future, for it is still a long way ahead. Some just cannot accept changes, because they are perfectly okay with their life now and they do not want to suffer.

Perhaps, living your own life, doing anything you like to your own life is enough. But... Caring for others, doing anything you can for others is something really happy, even if you suffer a lot in the process.

I feel contented in my own way knowing that I actually did something for someone, even if it does not turn out as what I expected. At least... I DID SOMETHING and I can answer to myself.

Complicated

Things in this world is just complicated especially feelings. There are times when you do not know what feelings or emotions you should be having.

When you are feeling so overjoyed, you try to ignore the sadness, frustration, depression, insecurities and worries because they seems to be negligible, also because you tends to choose the positive thinking.

When problems strikes, no matter how minor it seems, it will bring out the negative feelings deeply buried inside you. All the negative thoughts, all those worst case scenario and ignored problems will just flood out before you realize. If at this moment, something happy happened, what should you feel?

Its like on a roller coaster when you went up so high, then suddenly rushing down the slope and go up again. There are many people in this world who cannot take this ride because their heart cannot stand it. And yes, many people cannot deal with sudden mood swing and all the mixed feelings.

There are also sometimes when you know you are feeling this way but you are forcing yourself not to because you are told that you should not. Sometimes also because your feelings are not only affecting yourself only, but also some other people or the relationship between each other. Its like, no matter being selfish or not, you will get yourself hurt in the end. So, what should we feel?

Congrats~ ^^

"Sophia, I THINK I AM PREGNANT!"

The words were like a cup of coffee or Livita or Red Bull... Instantly woke me up and turn off my sleepy mode.

That was the first thing she told me in that morning when she saw me.
My reaction: Stunned --> Blank --> OMG --> HAPPY!

'Cos I was like joking around with her last week saying that she might be pregnant since she kept on thinking about food, having a greater urge for food she loves. It was like OMG, what I said came true and most importantly... This is the 1st time some1 told me herself that she is pregnant~! It may sound real weird or I might be the only hyper 1, but seriously, none of my cousins are married, I mean not in Malaysia and I do not have siblings! Feels so excited though I am not really close with her. Still, congrats!!! =p Ohya, SHE is my colleague. ^^

Talking about babies, makes me think about marriage, and hence thought about Wedding! OMG, I am super crazy over wedding gowns! Don't you think that wedding gowns are super duper nice? It's like the nicest dress on the world. Really feel like wearing one and have a photo-shooting session. There is no rule stating that one must be getting married when she wears a wedding gown right? Perhaps, I should get my cousin or friend to go take photos with me. ^^
N, I just wanna wear a wedding gown, not want to get married. =p

You know wat, Vera Wang is simply AWESOME~!

Random Fact: There is a bridal shop in SS2 call SOPHIA.

K, drag too far~ Haha! =p

They come and go... And sometimes, they stay permanently...

Do you ever wonder why some people just stop talking to you or even ignore your existence? Sometimes, they feel that you are just talking to the air around them, that's why it "look" like you are facing them.

I dare say, I am lucky enough to have all these happening on me more this year. Isn't it interesting? Being able to have all these experiences, going through all those sad and disappointing moments in life.

It especially hurt most when others asked you about it. No no, that's not the worst part. The worst part is: YOU DO NOT KNOW THE REASON YOU ARE BEING IGNORED.

Only at this moment, you will know that you do not understand them at all. You will even start doubting yourself, IS IT A CRIME TO BE NICE TO PEOPLE? or IS IT A CRIME TO HELP AND CARE FOR THEM? IS IT A CRIME TO DO MY BEST IN MY JOB? I guess it really is.

Luckily at this moment, I remember some one telling me: " As long as you know that you did the right thing, as long as you can answer yourself, you are not wrong." Yes... I am not wrong, I just, do not have the luck. Let's blame it to my destiny and the only thing I can do is, SMILE AND CONTINUE MY LIFE, not letting anyone interrupt it. Accept the fact that people come and go in your life, those who meant to and destined to stay, will be with you forever, no matter how far you are apart, they will still be in your life. Some people who are close to you or around you for a very long time might not even be those that will be in your life forever.

OMG

OMG! @ 1

My gum are bleeding more than usual recently, I think after I went to the dentist. ><><

OMG! @ 2

I had been to Genting for 3 times this month. ><><>< I am melting! Perhaps, I shall move to Genting one day. =p But seriously, if Sunway Pyramid is my home, Genting is my 3rd home d.

OMG! @ 3

Gonna start working tomorrow! Kinda like internship, for one month~ ^^ So... No salary, only allowance! And the allowance, I wonder if it is enough for my dad's petrol plus food. Anyway, hope everything will go on smoothly and I can learn something. But, no matter what, it is still better than rotting at home. 7.25 am to 5.10 pm... Why so early??????? Need to sleep a lot earlier d~ Good thing, set back my biological clock which is already a bit upside down. ^^ Gambate~!!!!!!

OMG! @ 4

I am so clueless about where to travel during September. Wanted to go Sepang Gold Coast so so so so much but its so frigging expensive! RM 599 nett per night per person. Even though everything is included, its still scary to spend RM 1800 in a day! Meaning nearly 4k in 2 days, its already enough for me and my mum to fly and stay in Taiwan for another week! So... What's the plan? I dunno. Help!!! Erm, maybe, Penang?

OMG! @ 5

I got myself a new gadget!!! ^^ Thank you daddy~! The red gadget along with all the free gifts, LOVE IT! Though I do not have much chances to use it. LOL!

Secrets? Random thoughts again. =p

Keeping secrets in the heart hurts ourselves. Sometimes, spilling it out will hurt even more people.

So, some people choose to keep it to themselves and hoping no one will ever know or start a topic related to it.
Some people choose to say it out because they feels that other people deserve to know even if they got hurt.

There is never a perfect solution. There is no right and wrong. No matter how, people will get hurt in the process, be it yourself or other people.

Sometimes, spilling it out, make a secret a problem, but in the end, what you get is a solution. Sometimes, keeping it to yourself enable the secret to be kept forever and no problem will be created, life goes on.

I used to love keeping everything to myself, because, I do not like to create problems for others nor adding burden onto people that I love. I would rather be struggling with all my thoughts, questions and secrets stuck in my mind than sharing with others. Sometimes, people might even not appreciate it when you try to share and you will be really screwed when they complicate the situation rather than solving it. But when you keep all your thoughts to yourselves, you are not showing the people who are important to you the true you. Pretty contradicting...

The most important thing is, when you meet someone who is
worth you showing the real you,
communicating with them in a way you are most comfortable with,
not worry about how your image will be ruined because of the way you behave,
and also,
telling them anything you have in your mind,
knowing that they will understand and even give you the appropriate advice,
you will not be contradicting yourselves anymore. ^^

Btw, just another random post which I do not know what is the main topic I am talking about. =p Well, life is full of randomness, isn't it? <3

我们该分手吗？

女孩终于鼓起勇气对男孩说：“我们分手吧。”
“为什么？”男孩问。
“厌倦了，就不需要理由了。”

一个晚上，男孩只玩线上游戏不说话，女孩心里也越来越凉了。
‘连挽留都不会表达的情人，能给我怎么样的快乐？’
过了很久，男孩终于忍不住问：“怎样做，你才能留下来？”
“回答我一个问题，如果你能达到我心里面想要的答案，我就留下来。”
“要是我非常喜欢悬崖上的一朵花，而你去摘的结果是百分百的死亡，你会不会摘给我？”女孩接着说。
“明天早晨告诉你答案好吗？”
女孩的心顿时灰了下来。

早晨醒来，男孩已经不在，只有一张写满字的纸，压在温热的牛奶杯下。
第一行，女孩的心已经凉透。

“亲爱的，我不会去摘，但请容许我说出不去摘的理由，好吗？
你只会用电脑打字，却总会把程序弄得一塌糊涂，然后对着键盘哭，我要留着手指帮你整理程序。
你出门时总是忘记带钥匙，我要留着双脚跑回来帮你开门。
喜爱旅游的你，在自己的城市也常常迷路，我要留着眼睛为你带路。
每个月‘好朋友’来临时，你总是全身冰凉还肚子疼，我要留着掌心帮你温暖小腹。
你不爱出门，担心你会患上自闭症，我要留着嘴巴驱赶你的寂寞。
你总是爱叮着电脑，眼睛都被糟蹋得不是很好了，我要好好活着，等你老了还能帮你修剪指甲。
我还要帮你拔掉懊恼的白头发，拉着你的手在海边享受美好的阳光，和柔软的沙滩。
我要告诉你，花的颜色就像你青春的脸。
所以，在我不能确定有人比我更爱你之前，我不想去摘那朵花。”

女孩的泪滴在纸上，但她抹干净眼泪，继续往下看。

“亲爱的，如果你已经看完了，而答案还让你满意的话，请你开门吧。
我正站在外面，手里提着你最爱吃的鲜奶面包。”

女孩拉开门，看见他的脸紧张得像个孩子一样，只会把拎着面包的周在他眼前晃。
女孩终于明白，这就是在爱情里或生活里，被平静的幸福包围着时，所透露出的平凡爱意。

A day when Sophia has 40 hours to spend!

11/4/10 & 12/4/10

8 - 9am: Wake up, slack, day dreaming

9-11 am: Report, slacking, day dreaming
11am -2 pm: Breakfast, shopping @ Sunway Pyramid

2-3 pm: CSI: Crime Scene Investigation (ie Las Vegas)

3-4 pm: Bath until skin peels off~
4-6 pm: Pack pack pack pack and pack... Print reports

6-7 pm: Travel from Subang to Semenyih

7-7.30 pm: Wasting time in 52... No1 tell us that we need to wait for 11 tables of dishes, which will be more than 1 hr of waiting...
7.30-7.45 pm: Give up on dinner in 52, put stuffs in room

7.45-8.50 pm: Wasting time waiting for dinner to be served in Jia Xiang Restaurant @ Broga... Forced to delay the games tryout from 8 to 8.30 then to 8.45 pm... I am such an irresponsible organizer, sorry guys...

8.50-10.40 pm: Games tryout~ Looking forward to the Farewell Partay~ Games! Punishments! Food! Performances!
10.40 - 11.20 pm: Chatting and watching stars with Chee Yuen gor @ in front of admin building. Then go find Mr. Great to give him ONE muffin...

11.20 pm - 3.00 am: Just busy~ Chat chat chat and chat... Til gor oso sleep d. Haha.

3.00-4.00 am: Early breakfast or late supper with that SS owl in some mamak stall... Had Roti Telur plus Neslo~ Totally awake!!! SS owl: " We shall see who sleeps 1st~"
4.00 am-6.00 am: Chat chat chat and chat and suddenly... "... N i feel like watching sun rise now, cos I am not sleepy at all.". A call from owl: "Are you serious about going up Broga Hill?"-> "YES!" -> "Ok, get ready and fetch you at 6.30 am."

6.00- 6.30 am: Change change change n change... LOL.

6.30-7.00 am: We climb, we crawl, we slipped, we chat, we SS on the Sophia's SS-ing stone

(like duh... ^^).

7.00 -7.45 am: Peak!!! SS, camwhore, sun rise, chatting~

7.45 am- 8.30 am: Moving down... Scared and cautious... But... Clumsy me... Slipped and fell... Made Mr. Great fell and hurt his hand. SRY!!!!


8.30 -10 am: Breakfast! and chat... Haha.

10am - 10.30am: Talked to dad. Luckily din scold. Haha. Ohya, I did not tell my parents bout me going to hike... Haha. Told them after reaching peak and coming down. LOL. Dad was like: "Hahahaha. Laugh la... Be careful la... LOL. Hahaha." OK, so not angry la. Muacks~

10.30 am - 11 am: Bath! Refreshing!

11am - now: BLOGGING! Upload photos on FB! ^^

So... To be continue~

p/s: Need to make up a bit d. My eye bag, panda eyes are not suitable to be presented to the person I am goin to meet later. I HATE TO MAKE UP!!! N... you are mad, I am mad, but I am in a good mood today cos I am going to not sleep for 40 hrs so I need a good mood to stay awake~ ^^

In Love With...

I had been traveling to Genting Highlands frequently recently and there is one place that I must go. I can stop myself from going to First World to shop (though not much shop there ^^"), but I must have my buffet dinner in Coffee Terrace. The food there cannot be rated as very delicious and do not consist of a large variety. But, I just love it. The chefs there are nice and when I went walking around taking pictures, they will even pose for me. ^^

Porridge

Dim Sum

Beef

Prawn~

Oyster

Vege (Simple but nice~)

Variety of salad (Love the potato salad~ ^^)

Char Koay Teow (Normal price@Ala-Cart=RM 14 and they give u the whole wok during buffet)

Satay, roti canai, choc fondue, fruits, ice cream etc available there. K, great, I am hungry d. Haha. Here some of the desserts.

Strawberry Pudding

Cheesecake

My favourite spot after dinner. The night view is quite nice~

Also, went to genting with Nott frens after our exam. Had a great time there~ Love you guys! Really want to travel with them again asap. LOL.

My cousin finally got married!!! Congrats to Yvonne and hope she will do great in Australia.

Part of my dad's side family (Maybe half of them?)

All New Me

Whole new me with a whole new hair style for whole new 2010!!!

Always wanted to have fringe and perm my hair, and I finally tried it~

As expected, I look mature with the curls. LOL. Hope that the curl will look more natural asap~ ^^

Finally~

The 3 main "Finally"s this 2 months~

Finally received a bouquet of roses~

From my DADDY~


Parents' 21st Anniversary present~

Ice-cream from swensens~

Finally updated my blog and changed the layout~

Finally told daddy about MH~ And... He DID NOT SAY NO!!!

OMG, I was so worried that he will not allow me to have a boyfriend now but eventually, he is not really against it. However, he gave me some 'advice' aka LECTURE.

And now, he is starting to make jokes out of my boyfriend. LOL. Most importantly, we can finally date without any worries that will see dad!!! ^^

Another finally, back with Hon~ ^^

And Finally, our another 5S6 class gathering~ Many people came back, Theng Fei, Jaq, Jia Ming, Caitlin etc. However, not many people attended. Only 13 of us. LOL. N Ms. Hing See Khee could not make it also, must seriously force her next time.

Joyce, Me and Jaq~

I am so lonely... LOL

My face looks small~ Thx Gor ^^

Everyone